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These are things I wrote a long time ago, I thought I'd post them.
ADDICTION
Everyone has an addiction. For some, it's needing a coffee before you wake up. While some are addicted to drugs and/or alcohol.And others, it's sex and being with many partners. But my addiction is beyond all of them. I'm addicted to bleeding and cutting. It's the greatest feeling, watching the blood trickle out of my body. I love the feeling of a open wound. It is like an orgasm for me. Probably most people would think I was sick, willingly destroying my body. The other addictions are ok, but since I bleed, I'm an insane wacko. But I don't care anymore. Living doesn't mean too much to me anymore. I know that death is just the next big adventure. It's the ultimate orgasm, as I cut the vain in my wrist wide open, watching the blood and my soul pour out of my body. Maybe I am sick, but I don't care anymore, it's time for me. I have done what I have needed to do in this world. Goodbye to my friends and family, I will watch over you, make sure you are ok. Don't mourn me, and don't blame yourselves, this was my choice. I will see you all again one day. I have one more act to perform, which is to lock my heart and soul into the dragon pendant around my neck. Well, it's time for me to have my ultimate orgasm. Addiction has claimed another life.
LOVE
Love is a dream. It's the dream that everyone shares. Well, almost everyone. I don't dream for love, my dreams are always the same. I dream about death, more accurately, my death. I know my destiny is to die alone. It's a guarantee now that I have made my choice. I choose to save my friends, rather than save myself. They are the ones that deserve to be happy, not me. The weight of the world is on my shoulders, and it's going to kill me. I can't let anyone else bare the weight I am holding up. So I don't dream of love. I parade around the world "happy", and nobody seems the wiser. Which is good, because I don't want anyone to know the pain I go through everyday. I long for the day I give up my life for the others. I'm meant to do this, it is my destiny. I guess I do love something. I love the role I get to play on earth.
ADDICTION
Everyone has an addiction. For some, it's needing a coffee before you wake up. While some are addicted to drugs and/or alcohol.And others, it's sex and being with many partners. But my addiction is beyond all of them. I'm addicted to bleeding and cutting. It's the greatest feeling, watching the blood trickle out of my body. I love the feeling of a open wound. It is like an orgasm for me. Probably most people would think I was sick, willingly destroying my body. The other addictions are ok, but since I bleed, I'm an insane wacko. But I don't care anymore. Living doesn't mean too much to me anymore. I know that death is just the next big adventure. It's the ultimate orgasm, as I cut the vain in my wrist wide open, watching the blood and my soul pour out of my body. Maybe I am sick, but I don't care anymore, it's time for me. I have done what I have needed to do in this world. Goodbye to my friends and family, I will watch over you, make sure you are ok. Don't mourn me, and don't blame yourselves, this was my choice. I will see you all again one day. I have one more act to perform, which is to lock my heart and soul into the dragon pendant around my neck. Well, it's time for me to have my ultimate orgasm. Addiction has claimed another life.
LOVE
Love is a dream. It's the dream that everyone shares. Well, almost everyone. I don't dream for love, my dreams are always the same. I dream about death, more accurately, my death. I know my destiny is to die alone. It's a guarantee now that I have made my choice. I choose to save my friends, rather than save myself. They are the ones that deserve to be happy, not me. The weight of the world is on my shoulders, and it's going to kill me. I can't let anyone else bare the weight I am holding up. So I don't dream of love. I parade around the world "happy", and nobody seems the wiser. Which is good, because I don't want anyone to know the pain I go through everyday. I long for the day I give up my life for the others. I'm meant to do this, it is my destiny. I guess I do love something. I love the role I get to play on earth.