Nov 01, 2009 04:04
Sometimes I can be such a girl.
Today, my fiance and I have our 6th anniversary. I really just wanted to take a minute to say that I love him so very much that it's sickening sometimes. I'm just so blessed and ridiculously grateful to have him in my life.
I know that the beginning of our relationship was strained at best, but you've stuck by me. I'm not the easiest person to be around all the time. I have been known to be certifiably (literally) insane, but you've always been there for me. It can't be easy to love someone who sometimes hears inanimate objects talking, sometimes sees things that aren't there. Someone who really doesn't understand why you stick around. Someone who has days (or weeks) where all they seem to do is mope and cry. But you stay. And while I don't understand it, I appreciate it from the depths of my soul.
I know that my pregnancy was hard on me, I can't even imagine how it was for you knowing that you may lose me or the baby if I chose to go through with it, and I can't tell you how much it meant to me that you supported my decision to try. Thank you for our son.
I know that working 12 hour days doing manual labor, sometimes out of town for months, isn't easy on you (in fact it's tearing your body apart), but I deeply appreciate everything you do for me and our family.
I know that I don't know where I would be without you.
I know that I love you. I love you more than I thought I would be able to love anyone. I've loved you since I first met you in that stupid coat with that stupid hair cut. I'm just happy that you've apparently found something in me that has kept you around for the last 6 years. I can only hope that whatever it is will keep you around for the rest of our lives.
Thank you.