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i apologize if i was a lil depressing or blah at pk's last night ppl
eh maybe no one noticed o_O lol
but yea i was kind of messed up w/o even really noticing it
i got a letter from my dad yesterday...
i didn't really read it, i skimmed through it quickly just picking up a few phrases and random things i didn't really feel like reading it but some of the stuff made me a lil bit upset.
iono i just shrugged it off like it was nothing but i guess at some level its bothering me a little more then i know.
fucking hate the holidays...
hate hate hate...
FUCK
ya no, like wtf... i was fine just plain fkn fine and he just had to send a stoopid fucking letter. to make me feel bad?! to tell me how he's alone for the holidays waiting for the muther fucking fone to ring?!
oh let me think back
where was i thanksgiving?!
HOME ALONE IN MY FUCKING ROOM ALL FUCKING DAY
i didn't even fucking eat on thanksgiving and he's complaining that he's alone?! WTF
its not my fucking fault
y do i keep gettin blamed why do i keep getting labled as a bad son i don't want to deal with any of that bullshit
i'm so used to not having my father around but he persists on trying to rebuild a relationship we used to have a relationship i don't even fucking remember
i don't know what its like to have a father my dad just always been a stranger fucking always
and family wtf is family to me any more
they are just as estranged to me as him
fucking hate the holidays
always on the holidays
makes everything seem so lonely looking from the inside out
eh maybe no one noticed o_O lol
but yea i was kind of messed up w/o even really noticing it
i got a letter from my dad yesterday...
i didn't really read it, i skimmed through it quickly just picking up a few phrases and random things i didn't really feel like reading it but some of the stuff made me a lil bit upset.
iono i just shrugged it off like it was nothing but i guess at some level its bothering me a little more then i know.
fucking hate the holidays...
hate hate hate...
FUCK
ya no, like wtf... i was fine just plain fkn fine and he just had to send a stoopid fucking letter. to make me feel bad?! to tell me how he's alone for the holidays waiting for the muther fucking fone to ring?!
oh let me think back
where was i thanksgiving?!
HOME ALONE IN MY FUCKING ROOM ALL FUCKING DAY
i didn't even fucking eat on thanksgiving and he's complaining that he's alone?! WTF
its not my fucking fault
y do i keep gettin blamed why do i keep getting labled as a bad son i don't want to deal with any of that bullshit
i'm so used to not having my father around but he persists on trying to rebuild a relationship we used to have a relationship i don't even fucking remember
i don't know what its like to have a father my dad just always been a stranger fucking always
and family wtf is family to me any more
they are just as estranged to me as him
fucking hate the holidays
always on the holidays
makes everything seem so lonely looking from the inside out