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things have been going very good for me latly, aside from losing my best friend and all the fighting, i've been great. for those of you who dont know about the little thing with me and wendy im telling you.....i fell in love again. and i know im prolly gonna get a bunch of bitchy comments for writting this, but i do love her so fucking much. i didnt think it was possible to go thrugh all of this again. i didnt think i would ever fall in love again, i just had too much focus on one person, one relationship, one life that i didnt see the other things. dont get me wrong i loved lizzy more than anything in teh world and she was completly perfect, the only one i wanted. i guess i just relized it was over and found some one new. i didt think i loved wendy for a while, but prolly 2 weeks ago it hit me. i was thinking and it reminded me of everything me and lizzy had and i decided it was love. and according to lizzy i cant love her because were not going out, but i do, i really really love her. and i can see myself being with her for a really long time. she makes me feel so indescribably happy. she brought back all of the feelings that lizzy gave and and then some. she makes everything in my life feel so right. she makes me feel so wanted like i actually fit in. just the way were are around each other its so perfect, shes the only one i want. i know shes going through alot of shit with troy and i understand completly what there going through, i've been there. and i know everytime they hang out they end up making out, but im actually okay with it because i know she loves me. i understand what shes going through and that it takes time to get over a first love. and i promised her i wouldnt let her go and that i would wait. we are very good for each other, she told me i stopped her from doing alot of stuff and made her feel a million times happier, and she's done the same for me. i love the way she makes me feel and i wouldnt give it up for anything in the world. so all of you can comment and tell me its just infatuation or some stupid shit. or that i dont love her, that its immpossible because were not going out. and i'll read all of your disapproving comments but i wont care. i finally found some one who makes me feel like im on top of the world, some one who makes me feel so happy that i quit doing alot of stupid shit. she changed me in so many good ways. so when you all are thinking that im crazy and im not in love with wendy, think about how i was after lizzy. think about how miserable i was, how i wanted to die everyday, how i cut myself and cried myself to sleep evey night. think about how you would feel if i was dead right now. well i dont feel any of that any more, none at all. i feel like everything is perfect right now. she made all of that go away, all that pain and misery, and replaced it with happiness and love. so no matter what any of you say it wont change the way i feel. i love wendy elizabeth hopper and if you got a problem with it FUCK YOU!