[He found himself at the field again, the pains from the death hitting him hard as he realized where he was. He had sat there for a a hour trying to get the power to move again. He didn't bother using the NV at first. Instead he started to walk, as best his body would let him, home
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[There was a moment of complete comprehension loss. Not exactly sure what just happened even though he knew for a fact what was happening. The pink thing was latched onto him in a hug, telling him she had been... scared. He felt a little sick, and so help him it felt like his body had been ripped apart... still.]
I'm sorry. [He said, voice cracking in a higher pitch. He felt like his throat was closing up any time he tried to speak. Instead he hugged onto the girl tighter, almost painfully so, and held on for a long moment before seeming to wobble a bit. A hand reaching out to steady himself]
S-sorry... I'm... I'm sorry. [He meant to say something else but her rush attack of a hug had thrown him off a bit. Not to mention he looked like he was about to fall over.]
[As for Trauma, he hadn't seen him yet, not in all the rush.]
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Shut up. Don't be... it's my fault for not-- for not getting there sooner.
[His voice cracking was killing her. The tears were coming back into her eyes. She wanted him to stop talking, so she moved her arms from his middle and put them around his neck. With a hand on the back of his head, she brought him down and kissed him on the lips. Not like when she kissed Trauma quickly. There was definitely something more to this kiss. Well, kisses. Tender, drawn out, and when she was done she kissed his cheeks and held him tightly again.]
Come on. We should get you to the couch. [Prying him off of her so she could lead him, she remembered something.] Trauma's back, too. I have my boys back. We're all okay, okay?
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Okay then.
Trauma blinked, and then finally spoke.]
Took you long enough.
[The look Trauma gives is something like he's attempting a smile or close to it, but it doesn't work well and he gives up to go over and help drag Claudio to the couch, because he remembers how fucking much that hurt and thinking about it still makes him sick. He still kind of does that hover thing for a moment before putting a hand on Claudio's shoulder to assist in ushering him.]
You probably should sit down.
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No. No I should have-- I was stupid and-- I'm Sorr--[The last cut off wasn't his own fault but hers. He shut up with a muffled little surprised sound as she kissed him. Kissed him a lot, actually. Everything was happening so fast that he wasn't even sure if that was a fact or not. For all he knew he was knocked out and his mind was dreaming or something. His head spun and though he kissed her back it had ended and she was pulling back form him and leading him in more.]
[It was like his breath had been taken away by that and the speed that everything was happening. Her words hit him just as fast though. Trauma was back also. Jen had told him as much, but as the boys hand landed on his shoulder and telling him he took long enough, to sit down and all... he looked gut shot again.]
[Last he saw Trauma, beside the scared as fuck video he had on his NV... was the red eyed Monstar that... scared the hell out of him. His eyes moved to the boys forehead, telling himself it wasn't Trauma that he shot, it was his monster. It wasn't Trauma it was his monster It wasn't] T-Trauma...
[He didn't move as they both tried to get him to the couch, though he might have thought he was moving as the world felt like it was moving beneath his feet. Instead he just stared at the boy, trying not to think about what he did to him, or that video, or... or if it was really him or not.]
[For those not inside the boys broken lil mind right now? On the outside he looked like he was a whole lot lost and a whole lot of tired with a dash of pain and a under layer of guilt.]
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But still, they really needed to talk. Badly. After things settled down, after the three of them got back into their normal groove of things, the power was back on, and no one was dying... they would talk. She promised. But right now, it was time for Claudio and Trauma to talk.
Still holding Claudio, she looked at Trauma and glared. Then she mouthed "HUG HIM" with a little hiss in her breath and let Claudio go. WITH A SMALL SHOVE. After that, Jinx proceeded to sit down directly in the middle of the couch and pull her blanket back around her, content to watch her family in their home again.
They were back, and she was not letting them leave ever again.]
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Besides, the guilt that was practically rolling off of him was insanely familiar. He'd been feeling it himself since he finally added up what had happened, all it had taken is reading a few news articles and a talk with Jinx to realize how he'd fucked up bad enough to get them both killed.
Then, of course, Jinx had to go and be difficult, and Trauma wanted to point out that shoving the guy who'd just gotten back from being dead wasn't okay, and shot her a glare for it just on principle. But the advice was good, even if she was a brat about it, so he followed it and hugged Claudio as tight as he dared to with how bad he was probably still feeling how he'd died.
Fuck. He still couldn't process that. Claudio had been dead, torn apart, and he'd seen it in his mind like he'd lived it, but he was right here and alive and the train of his thoughts didn't help his plan to not hug the other boy as tight as he could because this was not how the world worked things didn't get okay again but somehow they had and he didn't know what to do with that.]
Hey. It- It's okay. [It was surprisingly hard to talk when he tried to, so he didn't attempt beyond that.]
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[If things would just slow down some though... if they would just slow down so he could process it all. Talking to Jen had been easier then this. There was just one of her and no complex worries. He had one guilt that hit him and she got rid of that already, mostly. With his house how ever... it was different.]
[Being shoved into the other boy didn't help the whirl wind of his head, but it did slow it a bit. It hurt, at first, the sudden jarring feeling of running into someone and the tight hug he gave but he'd put up with tighter if he had to.] I'm sorry... I... it's not okay. I... should of... [He winced and hugged the boy tighter himself. It wasn't no kiss, not like Jinx, but it was clearly a needed action because... well, he was sure he wouldn't see Trauma again except for that small very scared image on his NV and the reply of that damn monst-- he wasn't going to tell the boy about that one either.]
[He drew back a bit, shaking his head, eyes looking with out meaning to, to the boys forehead. Seriously... that still bothered him. Ah, but he drew back only a little bit with another small wince and tried talking again]
I just.. I mean... [You know that annoying thing he does where he can't finish or even start a proper sentence? Yeah, we're there again. So he moved subjects] You came back. When? [Then, though leaning on Trauma, turned to look back at Jinx, wide eyed.] I... have no idea what... I mean I do have some idea but, --Jinx I'm sorry. I mean, to both of you.
[Babble, babble, and hold on to Trauma...]
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Though she did feel kind of like she was missing something. Something that had been nearby at all times for the past several days, and still pretty close for the past couple weeks. Gabriel was not here. She would have to call him later and tell him how happy she was. She wished he could feel what she was feeling, though. So much happiness, and yet she was still on the verge of tears.]
I told you to shut up and sit down, Claudio. [Jinx sniffled, beaming a tear-eyed smile.] You're both alive and he's not coming after you ever again, so everything's okay. Now both of you sit the hell down so I can hug you.
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