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[Castiel is outside, at what looks like a park. His usual stoic expression is a little more sad-seeming than usual. Other than that, there's no real indicator that something is wrong. He's spent a lot of time mulling over this and swallowing sadness.]

I finally experienced a dream. It was very enjoyable, but left me with a hollow sensation. I believe it's grief. I shouldn't feel this. Not for the reasons that I do.

[Not for seeing his traitorous, grace-forsaking sister as she was before she fell. He's supposed to hold contempt for her. She turned her back on everything they're supposed to believe in. And yet ... ]

I do not know if I would wish to dream again.