008 // [video- backdated to very early morning]
[There’s something decidedly earnest about the whole set up- Kaiji's turned fully towards the NV, all the lights are switched on and he’s staring determinedly ahead, not letting his gaze waver. On the table are a beer can and a near-empty ash tray but other than that, it's just him. This is something he needs to do.
Admittedly it's a something he’ll probably regret tomorrow but confessions generally aren't known for being pretty.]
… New Years… [he sighs] … I haven’t changed at all since I’ve been here- I’ve just been lying to myself this whole time, pretending like I have and that I was never the problem. Not anymore. There’s no point making any resolutions until I’ve accepted the problems, right?
If I say it like this, I can’t deny it again later. [He takes a deep, deep breath.] I… I’m… damn it-!
[Kaiji reaches out, grabs the beer can and downs the rest of it, slamming it back onto the table before forcing himself to speak:]
I’m a gambling addict-!! And I don't care what any of you think of me because of it-!
Admittedly it's a something he’ll probably regret tomorrow but confessions generally aren't known for being pretty.]
… New Years… [he sighs] … I haven’t changed at all since I’ve been here- I’ve just been lying to myself this whole time, pretending like I have and that I was never the problem. Not anymore. There’s no point making any resolutions until I’ve accepted the problems, right?
If I say it like this, I can’t deny it again later. [He takes a deep, deep breath.] I… I’m… damn it-!
[Kaiji reaches out, grabs the beer can and downs the rest of it, slamming it back onto the table before forcing himself to speak:]
I’m a gambling addict-!! And I don't care what any of you think of me because of it-!