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It's not often that I realize how young I am. So fucking young. Twenty years old? What does that even mean.
For the first time today, I'm actually close to death and it's terrifying. I've never really had anyone close to me die before and I'm not really sure that I can take more of this feeling.
Fuck.
I've known her since I was 12. We've gone from hero worship to friendship. She was one of the people in the world who knew me long enough to call me Rose instead of Siren.
And like. I feel guilty? Yeah. That's a good word for it. Guilty as fuck. I took her for granted. I never initiated a conversation. I never wished her a good day. I was so caught up in my own life that I never realize that someone who you thought would always be there would be gone the next day. And now there is no second chance anymore.
So thank you, Shiro. Thank you for everything you've ever done for me. I'm sorry I was possibly one of the shittiest friends you had. Thank you for teaching me the way even when I was a stupid naive little kid. Thank you for staying up late and fangirling about dumb stuff with me.
Rest in peace.
For the first time today, I'm actually close to death and it's terrifying. I've never really had anyone close to me die before and I'm not really sure that I can take more of this feeling.
Fuck.
I've known her since I was 12. We've gone from hero worship to friendship. She was one of the people in the world who knew me long enough to call me Rose instead of Siren.
And like. I feel guilty? Yeah. That's a good word for it. Guilty as fuck. I took her for granted. I never initiated a conversation. I never wished her a good day. I was so caught up in my own life that I never realize that someone who you thought would always be there would be gone the next day. And now there is no second chance anymore.
So thank you, Shiro. Thank you for everything you've ever done for me. I'm sorry I was possibly one of the shittiest friends you had. Thank you for teaching me the way even when I was a stupid naive little kid. Thank you for staying up late and fangirling about dumb stuff with me.
Rest in peace.