But I did not snuff it
When you can joke about your suicide attempts are you getting better?
Brent had me take the tiniest sip of some booze he brought back from Chile (I can't drink alcohol because of my meds.) I don't know how anyone drinks hard liquor! I really don't even like wine in the least. So, I said it tasted like what I imagined rubbing alcohol to taste like and then made mention of Kitty Dukakis's having drunk (drank?) rubbing alcohol. She was an alcoholic and got that desperate. I told Brent I didn't know if it was her intention to "snuff it."
In A Clockwork Orange Alex tries to kill himself, but wakes up in a hospital a full-body cast instead. He tells of his suicide attempt like this:
Suddenly, I viddied what I had to do, and what I had wanted to do, and that was to do myself in; to snuff it, to blast off forever out of this wicked cruel world. One moment of pain perhaps and then sleep forever and ever.
I jumped, o my brothers, and I fell hard, but I did not snuff it. If I had snuffed it, I would
not be here to tell what I have told. I came back to life, after a long black, black gap of
what might have been a million years.
I laughed and said to Brent that when I had been inpatient for severe depression, PTSD, and, ultimately, suicidal ideation, I should have told the nurses and docs that, "I had not snuffed it."
We both laughed, and then decided no one would have had any clue what the hell I was sort of quoting.
OH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This one is hilarious. We were discussing Sting and the Police the other day and the song Synchronicity 2 came up. I suddenly remembered that, I kid you not, the last two times I've been inpatient, it was playing on the radio in the common room where everyone eats, hangs out, does some groups, has recreation time, etc.
Here's the lyric that made its being played on the radio in a behavioral health unit funny as hell: "Mother chants her litany of boredom and frustration, but we know all her suicides are fake."
To quote Vonnegut, I had to laugh like hell.
Brent had me take the tiniest sip of some booze he brought back from Chile (I can't drink alcohol because of my meds.) I don't know how anyone drinks hard liquor! I really don't even like wine in the least. So, I said it tasted like what I imagined rubbing alcohol to taste like and then made mention of Kitty Dukakis's having drunk (drank?) rubbing alcohol. She was an alcoholic and got that desperate. I told Brent I didn't know if it was her intention to "snuff it."
In A Clockwork Orange Alex tries to kill himself, but wakes up in a hospital a full-body cast instead. He tells of his suicide attempt like this:
Suddenly, I viddied what I had to do, and what I had wanted to do, and that was to do myself in; to snuff it, to blast off forever out of this wicked cruel world. One moment of pain perhaps and then sleep forever and ever.
I jumped, o my brothers, and I fell hard, but I did not snuff it. If I had snuffed it, I would
not be here to tell what I have told. I came back to life, after a long black, black gap of
what might have been a million years.
I laughed and said to Brent that when I had been inpatient for severe depression, PTSD, and, ultimately, suicidal ideation, I should have told the nurses and docs that, "I had not snuffed it."
We both laughed, and then decided no one would have had any clue what the hell I was sort of quoting.
OH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This one is hilarious. We were discussing Sting and the Police the other day and the song Synchronicity 2 came up. I suddenly remembered that, I kid you not, the last two times I've been inpatient, it was playing on the radio in the common room where everyone eats, hangs out, does some groups, has recreation time, etc.
Here's the lyric that made its being played on the radio in a behavioral health unit funny as hell: "Mother chants her litany of boredom and frustration, but we know all her suicides are fake."
To quote Vonnegut, I had to laugh like hell.