Why?
Okay, I really want to stop taking care of the house because I am the ONLY one taking care of the house. The Kitchen was spotless yesterday. SPOTLESS! And now, it is a horrible mess. Again. This is just getting down right shitty. Matt and I can not afford to move out. Hell, even if we didn't have bills we were paying on we still would not be able to move out. Half of the money coming in would go to pay for rent. Not to mention we would have to pay for utilities and the cost of gas is going to be nuts this winter. If I went and got a job it would do us no good. I don't have any skills that would make me any money and everything that I did make would go to pay for childcare. I am not even clear on what I want to study when I go back to school. I was planning on going back in the spring. I don't know. What I do know is one of us has to get some kind of degree or we will always be with my parents and we will always be extremely poor. My husband use to do electrical work but so much time has passed that he needs more training before he could become an electrician. But of course that is not going to happen. He doesn't even want to do carpet anymore (not that people around here are hiring). He used to make a lot of money doing that. We could be completely debt free in a year if he was able to do that again. I don't know how he can be fine with working as much as he does and not getting paid a damn thing. Okay, I know. Be thankful he has a job. I am. But I do not want to live with my parents forever. If they just helped me keep the house tidy it wouldn't be so bad. I know they are extremely busy people, but I am driving myself into the ground. Maybe I should just learn to deal with it. I know I am being very selfish right now. Some people don't even have a home to clean.