Dec 07, 2005 23:05
What should I do with all of this anger? Well i'll scream like a child and break all my toys and i'll never look down again
I think that the best thing anyone could ever do is talk. The most romantic thing is talking. Talking over tea, talking in front of a fire, talking in the snow. If i could spend the rest of my life talking i would be content. The only drawback is without 'doing' there is little to talk about. Mulling over the same thoughts for long periods of time ruin even the smartest of people.
The only thing better than talking is being with someone and being able to talk without speaking. Meaning, having that same feeling of comfort and communcation without the excess noise distracting you. There are far to many thing that ruin talking, i wont mention the obvious ones, but insecurity is the worst. To not be able to talk to someone you love dearly because you can not convince yourself of how meaningless you are is the most offensive feelings. To think that it was so simple to have security, how originally insercurity wasn't issue, is completely frustrating. In my opinion the only reason we as humans feel insecure is because we have rejected God. Adam and Eve became aware of their nakedness directly after they rejected God, and they were ashamed. They lost their security because God can not allow something imperfect to be a part of him. And the only way we can truely be secure is to be a part of him. So now we are stumbling around trying to find security from our friends, family, even strangers. Anyone who will say we are worth something. Some people can find that, some people cannot. Either way it doesn't make you a bad person.
Insercurity is a lie. It is saying that you are doing something that makes you a unlikable, evil, unworthy, person. And that there is nothing you can do about it because that is just who you are, you are what you feel other people think of you unlikable, evil, unworthy of love. What good does it do to base yourself off of anothers opinion while they are doing the same thing. It is a true statement that there i no one completely secure 100% of the time. Anyone who says they are is a liar. Ironically enough because lying, faking being secure, it makes you feel more secure. Though it is a shallow security that can be broken in a moment. So here we are, a hopless people all bouncing off each other trying to find someone else to validate them, to give them an identity, to give them a sense of security. What else is there to do?
Talking helps, talking about anything to anyone. It gets you out of your own head for a minute. If you can do it honestly, it will give you some security. Anytime you can live outside of yourself you will have some feeling of security. Even in an unsecure situation. It will fade though, just as everything good does in this life. And that is not a hopeless statement in the slightest if you know at all why I am talking about this.