Strained Negotiations
Haven't had a formal update in a loooooooooooong time. My bad.
Not much going on with me, but I hope everyone is having a kickass summer so far. :)
Let's see..I still work for TD...as a lowly teller. It's not that I really hate the job per se, but I've been doing it part time for 2.5 years and it's seriously getting a little tired. I feel like my brain goes on autopilot as soon as I stop through the doors of that place. Monkeys could do my job. I feel like I'm in this rut where I want a better job, and that I should apply for one, but my recently acquired degree feels so worthless. I am but a drop in the ocean of new graduates. The upside to all this is the high possibility of Val and myself going to Japan for a year to teach english, explore and just have a life-changing experience together. There's only a little more than 4 months before I leave so it doesn't make much sense to pursue a full-time job at this point...? I suppose finishing the CSC and possibly other courses will help me feel more productive. Ah wells, we'll see how that goes.
So far this summer has been a blast. I feel like I've done so much (in terms of fun) but yet there's so many things I still want to do like go to the Drive-in again or go to the zoo. I know we've been having some pretty kickass weather lately, but has anyone else noticed how the weather is so freaky sometimes? It's like it was alive and had constand mood swings. Just bizarre.
On the parental front, things are as good/bad as it usually is. I suppose being only partially employed doesn't count for much around here. The whole career pressure is definitely mounting and while I've told them "I KNOW" it's like they don't even listen..or whatever response I give as to what my intentions/plans are just don't seem good enough. Then my mom starts complaning that I treat my house like it's a hotel...? I mean, yeah, I'm in Guelph working, spending time with Val, and if I'm at home I'm out with BCC and other people. It can't be helped. It's the summer! She then goes on saying how I don't spend time with her and my dad which in fact is totally true. The sad fact is, I don't really want to spend time with them. I feel terrible for saying it, but honestly, everytime we go anywhere (mostly out to dinner) even though it might seem like it's going okay, they ALWAYS manage to steer it back to topics concerning and relating to my career aspirations/future. Guess what? It's FUCKING ANNOYING. It's like hanging out with a friend who always just talks about ONE THING. Gah.It all seems so superficial. God knows what shit will hit the fan when I finally move out. I'm thinking I might sound a bit cold-blooded, but surely you guys have had similar situations? Any thoughts on this subject would be MUCH appreciated. Maybe Will Smith was right all along...
Not much going on with me, but I hope everyone is having a kickass summer so far. :)
Let's see..I still work for TD...as a lowly teller. It's not that I really hate the job per se, but I've been doing it part time for 2.5 years and it's seriously getting a little tired. I feel like my brain goes on autopilot as soon as I stop through the doors of that place. Monkeys could do my job. I feel like I'm in this rut where I want a better job, and that I should apply for one, but my recently acquired degree feels so worthless. I am but a drop in the ocean of new graduates. The upside to all this is the high possibility of Val and myself going to Japan for a year to teach english, explore and just have a life-changing experience together. There's only a little more than 4 months before I leave so it doesn't make much sense to pursue a full-time job at this point...? I suppose finishing the CSC and possibly other courses will help me feel more productive. Ah wells, we'll see how that goes.
So far this summer has been a blast. I feel like I've done so much (in terms of fun) but yet there's so many things I still want to do like go to the Drive-in again or go to the zoo. I know we've been having some pretty kickass weather lately, but has anyone else noticed how the weather is so freaky sometimes? It's like it was alive and had constand mood swings. Just bizarre.
On the parental front, things are as good/bad as it usually is. I suppose being only partially employed doesn't count for much around here. The whole career pressure is definitely mounting and while I've told them "I KNOW" it's like they don't even listen..or whatever response I give as to what my intentions/plans are just don't seem good enough. Then my mom starts complaning that I treat my house like it's a hotel...? I mean, yeah, I'm in Guelph working, spending time with Val, and if I'm at home I'm out with BCC and other people. It can't be helped. It's the summer! She then goes on saying how I don't spend time with her and my dad which in fact is totally true. The sad fact is, I don't really want to spend time with them. I feel terrible for saying it, but honestly, everytime we go anywhere (mostly out to dinner) even though it might seem like it's going okay, they ALWAYS manage to steer it back to topics concerning and relating to my career aspirations/future. Guess what? It's FUCKING ANNOYING. It's like hanging out with a friend who always just talks about ONE THING. Gah.It all seems so superficial. God knows what shit will hit the fan when I finally move out. I'm thinking I might sound a bit cold-blooded, but surely you guys have had similar situations? Any thoughts on this subject would be MUCH appreciated. Maybe Will Smith was right all along...