hard to say
one of my least favorite things is when you have something that you want more than you have ever wanted anything, but you cant have. I do realize that it happens to everyone, but it never seems like it. i only see it when it happens to me. Call me selfish, but i give, and i give a lot. but they say, "it is better to give than to receive." Which is true in a number of cases. I was up with my brother and sister-in-law in iowa. they are by no means poor, but they are kind of on the just making ends meet, they have a good reason too, they are going to chiropractic school. they are smarter than i am :\. but while i was there i did a lot of purchasing. i bought them a vcr because theirs broke, i bought them a steak dinner, oodles of thing. and it felt great. and i decided that i would give more, in hopes that God would grant me something in return. i suppose that was the mistake, giving in hopes that you get. because he gave me a big fat NO. and that really sucks. but i figure that is the way it has to be for now. if it is going to be different ill find out. well this is the end. goodbye