Smoking
I'm in a really depressed mood. I'm thinking if laura come's over there is good chance i'm gonna smoke. i mean why not? i have no drug tests to worry about.
man these wings i bought taste like shit.
anyway if i smoke and i start to freak out i'll just take a zannie. and i deserve to do something to fuck me up.
i was passing through drexel's campus today and everything hit me. that quaint little area with market st. running through it, was my home for 3 years. 3 years. that's nuts. i saw people walking up from the caf, those people used to be me. and now i am no longer that person, i am the asshole driver that won't let them pass. i used to be so care free, smoke drink, drop acid, all 3. take caffeine pills and drink a 2 liter bottle of mountain dew before a final. every week was the thrill of the hunt, not of anything other than alcohol. everyday was comraderie. i mean if i could live in myers hall forever i would. that place was sooo much fun. and there was a feeling. can't quite describe it.
i had decided i was gonna lower my standards for finding someone to care for and love. but while looks can be flexible, i can't be flexible on the personality. i gotta get along well with them, i gotta mesh. and i gotta think they have a fair amount of intelligence.
i don't feel like typing anymore
man these wings i bought taste like shit.
anyway if i smoke and i start to freak out i'll just take a zannie. and i deserve to do something to fuck me up.
i was passing through drexel's campus today and everything hit me. that quaint little area with market st. running through it, was my home for 3 years. 3 years. that's nuts. i saw people walking up from the caf, those people used to be me. and now i am no longer that person, i am the asshole driver that won't let them pass. i used to be so care free, smoke drink, drop acid, all 3. take caffeine pills and drink a 2 liter bottle of mountain dew before a final. every week was the thrill of the hunt, not of anything other than alcohol. everyday was comraderie. i mean if i could live in myers hall forever i would. that place was sooo much fun. and there was a feeling. can't quite describe it.
i had decided i was gonna lower my standards for finding someone to care for and love. but while looks can be flexible, i can't be flexible on the personality. i gotta get along well with them, i gotta mesh. and i gotta think they have a fair amount of intelligence.
i don't feel like typing anymore