GRRR
i am pissed off at my situation. i am never good at straying from myplans, and yet when i do i approach my potential. so i need to change up my diet. i know that when i buy breakfast and lunch it works. so nwo that i don't buy i need to eliminate eggs, since that is a variable. i'm also gonna start walking 20 minutes a day. it's funny i could hate doing things, but once i convince myself it is for experminent's sake, i can do anything. i wanted to be 300 by my brother's bar mitzvah so i have alot of work to do and abotu 2.5 month to do it (i actually originally planned on being 300 by mardi gras)
i am soo tired from last nite. but i learned something, i am money, maybe loose change, but i am money, i jsut need to get closer to that crisp benjamin.
laura kept trying to get me to smoke last nite. i'm sorta starting to waver. i deserve to be a lil fucked up now and then don't i? what i would give for one nite to be able to drink and know that noting bad medically will come from it. i wonder how many people know that they can't drink. and it's weird because i hang out with alot of people that have never seen me drunk.
i think the last time i did get drunk was back in my apartment at 2121 with curt. jen came in that night and opened up to me, and for thelife of me i have no recolection of what she said. i still feel bad about that.
so let's see. teresa has never seen me drink. lareina has once. marie has seen me destroyed, the one night at lou's when i was drinking vodka straight from the bottle, and i put away about a quart by myself.
kelly has definitely seen me destroyed, althoguh i don't hang with her that much. laura has never seen me bombed. katie i guess i've always hung out with like twice so she definitely has never sen me bombed.
and yet i have so many great stories. i remember the night we were all at hans' for st. patty's day and me and criss went over to jack stokes (chris siderio that is lol) and this one dude was starting shit with me and me and chris were gonna fuck him up. we were on;y supposed to be gone for like 10 minutes and we were gone for like an hour and a half. and of course the stories with carl, they were fabulous.
i remember me and ogre were at a party on pearl st. and i forget exactly what happened but we left and ended up heading to sam's and i don't remembe rmuch of that night lol.
i jsut talked to my aunt for aout half an hour and my family is so fucked up. i mean i'm related to the guy involved in that home invasion aw hile back where they tied up a police captain's mother. my ocusin fdavid is sleeping with his "step mother" wo is 17 (david is 22) and she is married to my 55 yar old uncle, and he has to be completely sociopathic. plus his daughter liz is 9 and has been having sex for 2 years.....since she was fraking 7! how can you even enjoy sex at 7? that is the youngest age i have ever heard and it's ridiculous that anyone would sleep with a 7 year old, the guys have to be at least 11 or so. i mean wtf. my little sister is 9 and she stil changes inf ront of people, well maybe not anymore, but you get the gist of what i mean. that is the msot fucked up family ever, ever! and the paent of the 22 and 9 year old started sleeping with my uncle when she was 14, he was like 35. she died in a car accident last year. i mean talk about a springer show, i could make millins off of this as a reality show.
i am soo tired from last nite. but i learned something, i am money, maybe loose change, but i am money, i jsut need to get closer to that crisp benjamin.
laura kept trying to get me to smoke last nite. i'm sorta starting to waver. i deserve to be a lil fucked up now and then don't i? what i would give for one nite to be able to drink and know that noting bad medically will come from it. i wonder how many people know that they can't drink. and it's weird because i hang out with alot of people that have never seen me drunk.
i think the last time i did get drunk was back in my apartment at 2121 with curt. jen came in that night and opened up to me, and for thelife of me i have no recolection of what she said. i still feel bad about that.
so let's see. teresa has never seen me drink. lareina has once. marie has seen me destroyed, the one night at lou's when i was drinking vodka straight from the bottle, and i put away about a quart by myself.
kelly has definitely seen me destroyed, althoguh i don't hang with her that much. laura has never seen me bombed. katie i guess i've always hung out with like twice so she definitely has never sen me bombed.
and yet i have so many great stories. i remember the night we were all at hans' for st. patty's day and me and criss went over to jack stokes (chris siderio that is lol) and this one dude was starting shit with me and me and chris were gonna fuck him up. we were on;y supposed to be gone for like 10 minutes and we were gone for like an hour and a half. and of course the stories with carl, they were fabulous.
i remember me and ogre were at a party on pearl st. and i forget exactly what happened but we left and ended up heading to sam's and i don't remembe rmuch of that night lol.
i jsut talked to my aunt for aout half an hour and my family is so fucked up. i mean i'm related to the guy involved in that home invasion aw hile back where they tied up a police captain's mother. my ocusin fdavid is sleeping with his "step mother" wo is 17 (david is 22) and she is married to my 55 yar old uncle, and he has to be completely sociopathic. plus his daughter liz is 9 and has been having sex for 2 years.....since she was fraking 7! how can you even enjoy sex at 7? that is the youngest age i have ever heard and it's ridiculous that anyone would sleep with a 7 year old, the guys have to be at least 11 or so. i mean wtf. my little sister is 9 and she stil changes inf ront of people, well maybe not anymore, but you get the gist of what i mean. that is the msot fucked up family ever, ever! and the paent of the 22 and 9 year old started sleeping with my uncle when she was 14, he was like 35. she died in a car accident last year. i mean talk about a springer show, i could make millins off of this as a reality show.