03/03/03
yeah that was yesterday and absolutely nothing magical happened.just another day in the life.
and i'm doing it again. i am over-anylizing like crazy. i mean i can have an entire relationship with someone in 10 seconds in my head, my ind is always wandering and always accounting for all the possibilities. yet somehow i am not that good at chess. and i do it on every word a person says. and yet i miss simple hints, because i am too busy looing for complex things.
i also feel like i might be selling out some of my friends and i can't do that. they were there during the bad times and now that things are good i need to include them.
i'm also finding that some of the poeple i hang with have no money and it's really holding me back from doing what i wanna do.
and lastly, i'm gonna miss Jumper AGAIN!
actually, i mgiht jsut go to AC early friday like i planned, then i could see jumper the next nite. i am trying to coordinate around everyone' sfreaking schedule and all i wanna do is play poker, and could frankly give a shit if anyone comes with. i need to do that mroe often.
and i'm doing it again. i am over-anylizing like crazy. i mean i can have an entire relationship with someone in 10 seconds in my head, my ind is always wandering and always accounting for all the possibilities. yet somehow i am not that good at chess. and i do it on every word a person says. and yet i miss simple hints, because i am too busy looing for complex things.
i also feel like i might be selling out some of my friends and i can't do that. they were there during the bad times and now that things are good i need to include them.
i'm also finding that some of the poeple i hang with have no money and it's really holding me back from doing what i wanna do.
and lastly, i'm gonna miss Jumper AGAIN!
actually, i mgiht jsut go to AC early friday like i planned, then i could see jumper the next nite. i am trying to coordinate around everyone' sfreaking schedule and all i wanna do is play poker, and could frankly give a shit if anyone comes with. i need to do that mroe often.