understanding

[sir_ntac]

everyone's gone. and tonight was nothing like last week. tonight was people sitting around talking abotu drugs for like 4 hours and me and carl doing our own thing. i need non drug related stories. that isn't the direction i am looking to go in. i have my breakdowns like the other day. but i thrive on responsibility and on structure. and friday night isn't my party night anyway, saturday is. and i usually have fun on saturday.

maybe i am trying to do tooo much. but i don't think so. i think i am doing the right things for me. and i'm gonna keep it that way. anyway that's it for now