Life.
Well works been okay to good, the management is kinda been crazy lately with us expanding to the upstairs last week and everything. Not to say anything near I dislike my job, I just wish I could do more actual photography on my time off... Dean and I are already making plans to have him teach me lighting theory and shit, I'm just impatient with this whole thing.
My personal life has been an emotional roller coaster, nothing acted out... but I'm a bit messy. Can you blame me? I've been trying to seriously look at my life and what I want from it. I want to feel like I'm somebody again and it's just not happening. I'm looking at what I'm doing currently and wondering why I'm doing it? Am I really happy? or do I just not know any better. I don't really know. I just get happy and then something reminds me of who you are and everything thats been done and suddenly I'm not so happy. I want to be won over and that's just not happening right now. The worst thing is, if I get upset and be like "fuck you get out" you'll just be like "okay" and never blink twice, to feel like your worth so little to someone sucks. I've felt that way for a year now. So the pieces will fall where they may...
Are you really worth my time?
My personal life has been an emotional roller coaster, nothing acted out... but I'm a bit messy. Can you blame me? I've been trying to seriously look at my life and what I want from it. I want to feel like I'm somebody again and it's just not happening. I'm looking at what I'm doing currently and wondering why I'm doing it? Am I really happy? or do I just not know any better. I don't really know. I just get happy and then something reminds me of who you are and everything thats been done and suddenly I'm not so happy. I want to be won over and that's just not happening right now. The worst thing is, if I get upset and be like "fuck you get out" you'll just be like "okay" and never blink twice, to feel like your worth so little to someone sucks. I've felt that way for a year now. So the pieces will fall where they may...
Are you really worth my time?