"he's been sleeping underneath your sheets..."
your burning a lot of bridges,
and
more importantly the one to my heart.
We are so happy together, but so rediculously hateful appart.
It's funny because all these boys she used to talk to are giving her so much credit and telling me all the great things she says about me but then she ruins it before I can say how happy I am with her.
HONESTLY, i just want some, or ok,A LOT, I mean ASSLOADS of positive attention from her, and right now my friends are giving me more of that then her. I'm starting to be what she wanted me to be all along, some guy who will go to parites and have a good time, some guy who will let her be with her friends and not worry but I think she hates it. I do think she's jealous though, and seeing my attention to her slip away a bit, but then maybe shes starting to get my perception a little bit?
Sometimes after some of the things I hear I cant help but feel second rate in a lot of ways, I wish I could talk to her about it, but I know I will be attacked for doing so and this whole me being friends with ashley situation will be brought up.
Somewhere over the last month she has became a lot more ruthless, Some of this feels how she described treating her ex boyfriend, but he was a douche bag, not I.
Its just rough because right now, im unhappy, when she calls she'll be in a bad mood, if she comes over she'll still probably be in a bad mood, then she'll wait for me to say something to start a fight, which wont happen.
I bite my tongue (sp?) so hard its begining to bleed all over her shirt.
I always sound reall unhappy, and like I hate laura a lot in these things, not neccesarily true, just sometimes I get down, sometimes I like to vent. She means the world to me and everyone around me knows that. If you dont your blind, deaf, and dumb because it radiates from me. This brings up another question, does everyone know she feels the same about me?
Bottomline = I love laura, just not when shes away from me right now, If it doesnt change, im going to get real used to Dan Doom's casa.
and
more importantly the one to my heart.
We are so happy together, but so rediculously hateful appart.
It's funny because all these boys she used to talk to are giving her so much credit and telling me all the great things she says about me but then she ruins it before I can say how happy I am with her.
HONESTLY, i just want some, or ok,A LOT, I mean ASSLOADS of positive attention from her, and right now my friends are giving me more of that then her. I'm starting to be what she wanted me to be all along, some guy who will go to parites and have a good time, some guy who will let her be with her friends and not worry but I think she hates it. I do think she's jealous though, and seeing my attention to her slip away a bit, but then maybe shes starting to get my perception a little bit?
Sometimes after some of the things I hear I cant help but feel second rate in a lot of ways, I wish I could talk to her about it, but I know I will be attacked for doing so and this whole me being friends with ashley situation will be brought up.
Somewhere over the last month she has became a lot more ruthless, Some of this feels how she described treating her ex boyfriend, but he was a douche bag, not I.
Its just rough because right now, im unhappy, when she calls she'll be in a bad mood, if she comes over she'll still probably be in a bad mood, then she'll wait for me to say something to start a fight, which wont happen.
I bite my tongue (sp?) so hard its begining to bleed all over her shirt.
I always sound reall unhappy, and like I hate laura a lot in these things, not neccesarily true, just sometimes I get down, sometimes I like to vent. She means the world to me and everyone around me knows that. If you dont your blind, deaf, and dumb because it radiates from me. This brings up another question, does everyone know she feels the same about me?
Bottomline = I love laura, just not when shes away from me right now, If it doesnt change, im going to get real used to Dan Doom's casa.