Worst day ever... possibly?
I suck and driving today, I probably should not drive anymore, but of course I have too.
Lately i've changed a bit, i cant get angry anymore, it just turns to immediate sadness, and then I dont want to do anything. I feel bad because she has no clue how to read me, and is showing no signs of figuring it out anytime soon. I've also taken into consideration maybe she doesnt care enough to notice, or to fix it, but i dont think/hope thats the case even though a lot of things could tell me the opposite.
I hate how she takes forever to get ready while i'm forced to put on clothes I wore the day before, and she has no sympathy for me, just "this is how I dress ryan." Its hard to say stuff about the way she dresses because she always gives me the "ok mom" comment. It's frustrating, especially when shes like DRESS ME! Because she doesnt have much at all, and gets mad at me for finding the same things she always wears because A) its the only thing she's willing to wear B) the only thing decent to wear. I want to take her shopping and be like look, this doesnt work but why would she believe me? I'm only one of the best dressed guys you'll EVER meet.
I'm refusing to fight though, even thought shes still missing the simple things it would take to make everything all better. Sadly that one show, save your marriage in a week or whatever came on and I swore it was me and her to a lot of degrees. I didnt say anything though. (Im a peace keeper) The guy was getting walked on by the wife, even though he did a bunch of crap with open arms, the guy didnt even look like he could ever be mad, and when the host was like he's trying and your not accepting it the lady made a big scene, and you could see the guy felt bad for her. We aren't to that extreme but thats what it could get to. I think i'm starting to get more leverage on those things, or atleast I can use some, I just dont want to hurt her, and I know she does a lot of things out of spite even when she doesnt like what shes doing. So its hard to be an ass when I know shes going to go do something just to be a bitch back.
I still love her though, I'm going over after my game (which I didnt invite her to because I probably wont play much and she'd complain about driving here), I hope it all goes well and such.
I feel much closer to her, She sees it, hopefully she feels the same way. Otherwise im in for another roller coaster ride.
"something isnt right here" (reference to me and my current mood, not my significant other)
Lately i've changed a bit, i cant get angry anymore, it just turns to immediate sadness, and then I dont want to do anything. I feel bad because she has no clue how to read me, and is showing no signs of figuring it out anytime soon. I've also taken into consideration maybe she doesnt care enough to notice, or to fix it, but i dont think/hope thats the case even though a lot of things could tell me the opposite.
I hate how she takes forever to get ready while i'm forced to put on clothes I wore the day before, and she has no sympathy for me, just "this is how I dress ryan." Its hard to say stuff about the way she dresses because she always gives me the "ok mom" comment. It's frustrating, especially when shes like DRESS ME! Because she doesnt have much at all, and gets mad at me for finding the same things she always wears because A) its the only thing she's willing to wear B) the only thing decent to wear. I want to take her shopping and be like look, this doesnt work but why would she believe me? I'm only one of the best dressed guys you'll EVER meet.
I'm refusing to fight though, even thought shes still missing the simple things it would take to make everything all better. Sadly that one show, save your marriage in a week or whatever came on and I swore it was me and her to a lot of degrees. I didnt say anything though. (Im a peace keeper) The guy was getting walked on by the wife, even though he did a bunch of crap with open arms, the guy didnt even look like he could ever be mad, and when the host was like he's trying and your not accepting it the lady made a big scene, and you could see the guy felt bad for her. We aren't to that extreme but thats what it could get to. I think i'm starting to get more leverage on those things, or atleast I can use some, I just dont want to hurt her, and I know she does a lot of things out of spite even when she doesnt like what shes doing. So its hard to be an ass when I know shes going to go do something just to be a bitch back.
I still love her though, I'm going over after my game (which I didnt invite her to because I probably wont play much and she'd complain about driving here), I hope it all goes well and such.
I feel much closer to her, She sees it, hopefully she feels the same way. Otherwise im in for another roller coaster ride.
"something isnt right here" (reference to me and my current mood, not my significant other)