School and life
I've been very quiet on LJ for a few months because there was something I was fighting and striving for and I didn't want to say anything till it seemed concrete. Well it looks concrete now. I move in late July. My next assignment will be in Atlanta getting my PhD in Operations Research.
I'm nervous and excited all at the same time. I've never lived in a "real" city before, I'm kind of still scared about living in the city. I'm scared that I'm not up to the task of getting a PhD in three years, that's not much time and a lot of people don't make it. I'm happy to be co-located with Shadow-Spawn again. I excited about the concept of actually going to school while I earn an income. I'm sad about moving, I put alot of work into this house, but I need to sell it to buy another one. On the other hand I'm happy about buying another house (its crazy, I know). Its a mixed bag of feelings, dominated by positive emotions, but still a mixed bag. Moves always are for me, but this one more then some. I was planning on making VA my home leaving it is harder then leaving Colorado was.
Also on my mind is the fact that this is a real moment (loose definition of moment there) of truth for me. I have always wanted to be a scientist, but I flubbed it at WPI and couldn't hack Physics, so I took the path of least resistance. I have been fighting to get back to real science ever since. While Operations Research doesn't seem like science, I will be focusing on Optimization and tailoring my degree towards the optimization of complex engineering tasks (like building engines, fighter planes or space ships). Alot of my future rests on how this goes, the same was true at WPI, I just didn't realize it back then.
Anyhow that's what up in my life. The details of day to day life are largely irrelevant.
I'm nervous and excited all at the same time. I've never lived in a "real" city before, I'm kind of still scared about living in the city. I'm scared that I'm not up to the task of getting a PhD in three years, that's not much time and a lot of people don't make it. I'm happy to be co-located with Shadow-Spawn again. I excited about the concept of actually going to school while I earn an income. I'm sad about moving, I put alot of work into this house, but I need to sell it to buy another one. On the other hand I'm happy about buying another house (its crazy, I know). Its a mixed bag of feelings, dominated by positive emotions, but still a mixed bag. Moves always are for me, but this one more then some. I was planning on making VA my home leaving it is harder then leaving Colorado was.
Also on my mind is the fact that this is a real moment (loose definition of moment there) of truth for me. I have always wanted to be a scientist, but I flubbed it at WPI and couldn't hack Physics, so I took the path of least resistance. I have been fighting to get back to real science ever since. While Operations Research doesn't seem like science, I will be focusing on Optimization and tailoring my degree towards the optimization of complex engineering tasks (like building engines, fighter planes or space ships). Alot of my future rests on how this goes, the same was true at WPI, I just didn't realize it back then.
Anyhow that's what up in my life. The details of day to day life are largely irrelevant.