[Hellsing: No Fear. An Alucard and Integra Fanmix]
"My darling Integra. When all hope is lost, our family's darkest legacy will be the instrument of your salvation."
(Arthur Hellsing's will to his daughter, Integra)
Sir Integra Fairbrook Wingates Hellsing and Alucard (or should I say, Count Dracula) are (alongside the police girl turned to newbie vampire, Seras Victoria) the main characters of the Anime/Manga, Hellsing. She’s the human leader of the Organisation and a knight of the Royal Protestant Order and he’s the ace under her command and mastership. Together they fight the forces of the night to protect the United Kingdom. Alucard and Integra have an intriguing and complex dynamics of master/servant with unresolved sexual tension, obvious admiration and respect for each others with degree of strong symbiosis that draws many, making them the most popular pairing in the fandom. This is a tribute to one of my favorite couples of the series (after Pip/Seras).
Special thanks to pookles13 for the cover and talia_of_eragon for the backcover.
"Welcome back, Count."
"Good to be home, Countess."
(Integra and Alucard, volume 8).
Dramatis Personage
1. Meant to Live by Switchfoot (Lyrics)
Dreaming about providence and
whether nicer men have second tries.
Maybe we've been living with the eyes half open,
maybe we're banned and broken. (broken)
We were meant to live for so much more.
Have we lost ourselves
somewhere withinside,
somewhere withinside?
We were meant to live for so much more.
Have we lost ourselves
somewhere withinside,
somewhere withinside?
The King: Human!Dracula's song. As showed in his flashback, he had a dream of building God's Jerusalem in earth and wanted to bring Him down to live among the people. A seasoned, bitter warrior who died unfulfilled against his Father's indifference.
2. King Nothing by Metallica (Lyrics)
Wish I might
Wish I may
You wish your life away
Are you pacified?
All the wants you waste
All the things you chased
Then it all crashes down
And you break your crown
And you point your finger
But there's no one around
Just want one thing
Just to play the king
But the castle's crumbled
And you're left with just a name
Where's your crown, King Nothing?
Where's your crown?
No Life King: Alucard's a compelling character because with all his power, he's a loser, he owns nothing, not even his own will. He plays ruler still sat on his "throne" in the basement, but he's just a broken soul who is grasping old glories and unable to find peace: his castles are long gone. He is no longer a king, no longer a man of God, no longer a man and he suffers for this. He regrets his mistake. This is mostly Manga Alucard.
3. The Girl with the Weight of the World in Her Hands by Indigo Girls (Lyrics)
She won't recover from her losses,
She's not chosen this path, but she watches who it crosses
Maybe move to the right, maybe move to the left
So we can all see her pain she wears like a banner on her chest
And we all say it's sad, and we think it's a shame
And she's called to our attention, but we do not call her name,
The girl with the weight of the world in her hands.
We're busy with our happiness, busy with our plans
I wonder if alone she wants it taken from her hands
But if things didn't get any harder
She might miss her sacred chance to go a consecrated martyr,
The girl with the weight of the world in her hands.
Young Master: Integra was born to be the shield and sword of the United Kingdom against supernatural forces and enemies of its Church. She was raised and inhereted this title when her father passed away. She was only a twelve years old girl (thirteen, in the Anime/Tv series) who kissed her childhood good-bye to enter into a harsh adulthood, starting with her uncle's murder. She carries the weight to be a knight, the leader of Hellsing and Alucard's Master. Far from escaping this fate (as most "chosen ones" do), she embraces this with pride and dignity.
4. The Tower by Vienna Teng (Lyrics)
She turns up the light
Anticipating night falling tenderly around her
Watches the dusk
The words won't come
She carries the act so convincingly
The fact is sometimes she believes it
She can be happy with the way things are
Be happy with the things she's done
And yet I need not to need
Or else a love with intution
Someone who reaches out to my weakness
And won't let go
I need not to need
I've always been the tower
But now I feel like the flower trying to bloom in the snow
Master: Integra grows and blooms into a beautiful, fiesty but very lonely woman. She is the Iron Maiden, the tower few can enter. She watches everything under her (sometimes) stoic mask, trying to convince her acts and orders were justified. This is hard when she loses her men or she has to command the deaths of humans (volume 4) and loved ones (Walter in volume 9).
"I thought a knight in shining armor would await me, instead this. If such fantasies were to come reality, I would be happy."
(Young Integra, volume 1).
Once Upon a Time
5. Control by Poe (Lyrics)
Don't you mess with a little girl's dream
'Cause she's liable to grow up mean
Surprised you to find that I'm laughing?
You thought that you'd find me in tears
You thought I'd be crawling the walls
Like a tiny mosquito and trembling in fear
Well you may be king for the moment
But I am a queen understand
And I've got your pawns and your bishops
And castles
All inside the palm of my hand
While you were looking the other way
While you had your eyes closed
While you were licking your lips
'Cause I was miserable
While you were selling your soul
While you were tearing a hole in me
I was taking control
Now I have taken control
...CONTROL
Now I have taken control
...CONTROL
NOW I HAVE TAKEN CONTROL
...CONTROL
Not an Ingenue: A song to portray young Integra's struggle for the mastership of Alucard. She challenged him in her fear, not backing down his advances and wining his respect and admiration. Their relationship start with powergames and continue with it.
6. Deception by Cruxshadows (Lyrics)
She cries, children often do
When they're cold, and hungry too,
Come closer, look deeply in her eyes
So delicate, quite unlike her smile
Life clinging backwards,
In the fall of dread confusion,
Still this silence gnaws upon your fingertips,
All-yielding prayer, for instant isolation,
Far more sinister than the price of doubt,
Yet you remain,
Still you remain,
And she says:
Pray for daylight,
Pray for morning,
Pray for an end to our deception,
Not a Guardian Angel: In the Anime, it's very obvious Alucard became fixated on Integra since their meeting, her eyes, in particular, he turned Seras Victoria into a vampire because her eyes reminded him to hers (according to the interview with Gonzo in Newtype). This is a companion with the other song. She endured despite everything and displayed her courage against him. This shows the rots of Alucard's advances, the start of their twisted relationship filled with games to alleviate his boredom. He's an old, proud and powerful vampire who became impressed by this young, human girl.
7. Holding up for a Hero by Frou Frou (Lyrics)
Where have all the good men gone
And where are all the gods?
Where's the street-wise Hercules
To fight the rise of odds?
Isn't there a white knight upon a fiery steed?
Late at night I toss and turn and dream of what I need
I need a hero
I'm holding out for a hero 'til the end of the night
He's gotta be strong
And he's gotta be fast
And he's gotta be fresh from the fight
I need a hero
I'm holding out for a hero 'til the morning light
He's gotta be sure
And it's gotta be soon
And he's gotta be larger than life
The Damsel in Distress: Departure from the intense, creepy tv series first meeting; in the Manga, the meeting between Alucard and Integra is far more cordial and archetypically romantic. Integra wishes for a knight in shining armor to save her from her greedy uncle while curling next to the corpse she found in the basement. Little she knew the corpse will rise to protect her and answer her prayers.
8. Silent Lucidity by Queensryche (Lyrics)
If you open your mind for me
You won't rely on open eyes to see
The walls you built within
Come tumbling down, and a new world will begin
Living twice at once you learn
You're safe from pain in the dream domain
A soul set free to fly
A round trip journey in your head
Master of illusion, can you realize
Your dream's alive, you can be the guide but...
I- will be watching over you
I- am gonna help to see it through
I- will protect you in the night
I- am smiling next to you....
The Knight in Shining Armor: Unlike Anime Alucard, Manga Alucard is an avid protector and lover of humanity (humans not dogs), he's devoted to Integra without tests or trials, he's her guardian and protector, he's there to watch over her dreams (not always mean literal, but goals) while she guides him through this path he cannot walk alone any longer. He beheld how the little girl killed her own uncle and became a woman, his Master. So it began.
9. No Fear by The Rasmus (Lyrics)
Girl,
You lived your life like a sleeping swan
Your time has come
To go deeper
Girl,
Your final journey has just begun
Destiny chose the reaper
No Fear
Destination Darkness
No Fear
Destination Darkness
No Fear
Ten Years Ago: Their journey begins... Integra (in both accounts) is fearless about Alucard, this is important in their relationship, her lack of fear and what I tried to exalted in this song and this fanmix: She's not afraid of darkness, she fights against its forces and lives with it everyday. In a way, her relationship with Alucard is exactly the opposite to Seras', who to date in the Manga, looks afraid of Alucard.
"Have you ever thought of me sucking your blood?"
“Why don’t you read my mind?”
“I want to hear it from your lips.”
(Alucard and Integra, episode 11)
Their Animated Story
10. Addicted by Kelly Clarkson (Lyrics)
It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me
His influence: While this mean to be by both canons, and the issue of Alucard as drug for his Masters is brought in the Manga, I will place the lyrics more fitting for the tv series. Alucard is always invading her space, prying with questions she shouldn’t ask, tempting her. She knows he’s harmful but always relies on him.
11. Poison by Alice Cooper (Lyrics)
Your cruel device,
Your blood like ice.
One look could kill,
My pain, your thrill.
I wanna love you, but I better not touch (don't touch)
I wanna hold you, but my senses tell me to stop
I wanna kiss you, but I want it too much (too much)
I wanna taste you, but your lips are venomous poison
You're poison runnin' through my veins
You're poison, I don't wanna break these chains.
Her influence: Likewise, I think this fit more in the tv series canon. There is this building tension, between both of them, always at the edge of the knife, but he won’t touch her, he offers, tempts, argues, but never touches. Her blood is the sweetest thing he has tasted and runs through his veins giving his slumbering corpse life in the first place. He may yank the chain but will never break them, he’s terrified at the idea of losing his Master to death.
12. Mine by Savage Garden (Lyrics)
Won't you leave me in the darkness.
Take away the pride, all the dignity that's burning inside.
Can't you see I'm standing naked.
I'll bear all the crosses and the crucifixes you can provide.
If you could decide.
Just a twist in time ...and you could be mine
Just a sip of wine ...and you could be mine
Just a kiss divine ...and you could be mine
Possessiveness: In all honestly, this song also fits Manga Alucard (who calls Integra his beloved Master and only his recently), but I placed it here to give some sense of identity to each bit. Alucard has always wanted Integra, this particular scene, I believe fits when he offers her his blood in episode 11, he was straightforward, bared in both concern and offering, while she changed subjects and walked away without giving him an answer.
14. The Hand that Feeds by Nine Inch Nails (Lyrics)
For the blood
On which we dine
Justified in the name of the holy and the divine
Just how deep do you believe?
Will you bite the hand that feeds?
Will you chew until it bleeds?
Can you get up off your knees?
Are you brave enough to see?
Do you want to change it?
Rebellious Streak: Alucard is no tame puppy and, in episode 8, he gives a taste to his Master about what a target may feel. This is to portray their struggle with themselves and Integra’s to her fellow knights. After all, her loyalty may not last forever if everything they do (unlike the manga) is to betray her.
14. Judith by A Perfect Circle (Lyrics)
You're such an inspiration for ways
That i will never ever choose to be.
Oh so many ways for me to show you
How your savior has abandoned you.
Thank(fuck) your god.
Your lord, your christ
He did this,
Took all you had
And left you this way.
Still you pray, never stray,
Never taste of the fruit.
Never thought to question why.
Temptation: Abandoned by her Church, her Queen, her allies with her organization destroyed and framed by crimes that weren’t hers, Integra spends time in jail still recovering from a deadly injury in her neck. Alucard arrives, breaks the glass of wine, cuts his own hand and asks her orders. And her choice.
15. The one I Love by The Rasmus (Lyrics)
Haven't slept in a week
My bed has become my coffin
Cannot breath, cannot speak
My head's like a bomb, still waiting
Take my heart and take my soul
I don't need them anymore
This bed has become my chapel of stone
A garden of darkness to where I'm thrown
So take my life, I don't need it anymore
The Choice: Integra’s answer is never uttered. Alucard smirks, so does she. Blood drips in a pool and fades to black. I’m giving an educated guess of what would have happened, a repeat from their meeting, only in reverse.
"... Hah! Hahah! Hahahah. Hahah. Hahahahahah! Rogerrr. Yes. That's the last fig leaf. How splendid! It prompts a stirring in my loins, Integra!! In that case, I'm going out shooting. Watch closely. Sir Hellsing."
(Alucard to Integra, Volume 3)
Their Documented Story
16. Downfall by Matchbox Twenty (Lyrics)
Here we go again
Ashamed of being broken in
We're getting off track
I wanna get you back again
I want you to trouble me
I wanted you turning down
I want you to agree with me
I want so much so bad
Come on and lay it down
I've always been with you
Here and now
Give all that's within you
Be my savior
And I'll be your downfall
Mmm mmm mmm
Savior and Downfall: This is the song that best portrays their interaction in the Manga. Both characters represent their failures and salvations. Integra’s a human, using a dangerous, addictive monster as Alucard could bring her downfall but he helps her time and time again. Alucard’s a vampire, serving the descendant of the one who defeated him is a sign of downfall, but her will and orders keep him from falling further into his senseless cycle.
17. Harbor by Vienna Teng (Lyrics)
Sail your sea
Meet your storm
All I want is to be your harbor
The light in me
Will guide you home
All I want is to be your harbor
Anchor: Alucard journeys to many places, even away from the country, but he always returns readily to his Master’s side and, when they met, she’s always smiling for him and he always goes right to meet her first. She’s the anchor he has, the symbol of home he has to return. She knows it. Those little details that make a relationship complex.
18. Unknown Soldier by Breaking Benjamin (Lyrics)
Borderline, dead inside.
I don't mind, falling to pieces.
Coming in, violin, let's begin.
Feeding the sickness.
How do I simplify, dislocate, the enemy is on the way
Full of fear, everclear.
I'll be here, fighting forever.
Curious, venomous, you'll find me climbing to heaven.
Nevermind, turn back time.
You'll be fine, I will get left behind.
Soldier: Alucard kills. He’s a monster. He’s her dog, her weapon. She can dream, but his dreams are long gone. He is fighting forever, for her or for the fight itself. This song is to portray Alucard’s role in Hellsing.
19. My Medea by Vienna Teng (Lyrics)
So come to me my love
I'll tap into your strength and drain it dry
Can never have enough
For you I'd burn the length and breadth of sky
For it's my thoughts that bind me here
It's this love that I most fear
And this child I would destroy
For I hold her pain most dear
Pitiful Fate: Alucard’s fate is destroy everything he loves in the fires of war and, in Hellsing, he has been leading Integra around, unconsciously, to ignite another war by baiting her to order conflicts in volume 3 and forward, feeding in her strength of will to combat. He’s aware of this pathetic life he has to live and wants Anderson to kill him, placing an end to his senseless pain. Presumably, in my honest opinion, to put an end to the conflict before his thirst for battle destroys Integra (and Seras).
20. Loneliness by Annie Lennox (Lyrics)
Hopelessness
is the darkness in your heart
It's the sound of one hand clapping
While it's pulling you apart
Woa and I know
Yes and I know
What you feel
Understanding: Obviously, his plans fails and Anderson becomes a monster, forcing Alucard to kill him. He’s very impressed upon this and recalls his lost humanity, lamenting what happened, breaking down in the battlefield. Quietly, Integra watches and reflects what her father said about how miserable vampires were, she isn’t shocked by Alucard’s pain unlike the other witnesses, she’s sad. She understands what he’s enduring in her unspoken way. She offers no comfort, Anderson is doing the talking, instead (silent and gloomy) gives a tribute to both fallen warriors of God: she's exactly like them before their determination faltered and knows.
21. She Will Have Her Way by Neil Finn (Lyrics)
I might be old but I'm someone new she said
I'm so sore that I could cry always
In the night lay your tired arms
She will have her way
Somehow I will still believe her
Trust: After Anderson dies and Walter appears, Integra issues orders to kill her traitorous butler and Major calls her forth the Zeppelin. They almost at the same time assume what the other will do. Integra’s going to end this war, Alucard encourages her, assuring he’ll deal with Walter, she has trust in his word and is half the way when he proposes it. A good team who communicates with words and actions.
"Vampire. Dracula. Nosferatu. No Life King. Count. That man has lived on many moons, devouring an even larger number of people's desires. There is nothing left for him anymore: a castle, a kingdom, or people to inhabit such... or his beloved's heart. Not even his own heart. From war to war, he erases everything in his sight, even in times of complete peace. He's a ghost, a ghost walking... walking ever forward."
(Arthur Hellsing to his daughter, Integra. Volume 9)
Unwritten Endings
22. What have you done by Within Temptation (Lyrics)
Would you mind if I killed you?
Would you mind if I tried to?
Cause you have turned into my worst enemy
You carry hate that I don't feel
It's over now
What have you done?
What have you done now?
I, I've been waiting for someone like you
But now you are slipping away
What have you done now?
Why? Why does Fate make us suffer?
There's a curse between us
Between me and you
Human vs Monster: In the potential scenario Alucard goes insane by Major’s poisoning plan (and isn’t just going to disappear), this song fits Integra having to fight her servant for their sakes, for him to reach peace and to save the world she has to protect. Only a human will kill him, he won’t allow anyone who isn’t human have the honor of defeating him.
23. Forgiven by Within Temptation (Lyrics)
I know it was destined to go wrong
You were looking for the great escape
To chase your demons away
For so long, I’ve tried to shield you from the world
You couldn’t face the freedom on your own
Here I am
Left in silence
You gave up the fight
You left me behind
All that stands forgiven
You’ll always be mine
I know deep inside
All that stands forgiven
His Peace: Integra upon the possible (and at the moment the most likely, I say) outcome: Alucard’s death, his soul finally reaching the peace he wants. He’s forgiven for his shortcomings and given peace.
24. Haunted by Poe (Lyrics)
Come here
No I won't say please
One more look at the ghost
Before I'm gonna make it leave
Come here
I've got the pieces here
Time to gather up the splinters
Build a casket for my tears
I'm haunted
(By the lives that I have loved)
I'm haunted
(By the promises I've made)
I'm haunted
By the hallways in this tiny room
The echos there of me and you
The voices that are carrying this tune
Imprisonment: A walk in the head of crazy!Alucard in a less likely outcome in which Integra’s forced to lock him in the basement after he proves to be too dangerous under the effects of the poison. Delirious, alone, filled with regrets, he calls for Integra in his cell.
25. The Ghost of You by My Chemical Romance (Lyrics)
At the top of my lungs in my arms she dies
She dies
At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I? Should I?
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I? Should I?
And all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me
For all the ghosts that are never gonna catch me
Tragedy: Probably the least likely of the outcomes, Integra’s death in battlefield, and well, the end of the “world” or England. Her presence alive is what stops Sir Islands from nuking the hell out London and move to Canada. And the hand that leashes Alucard from his destructive urges. These would be Alucard’s thoughts in the Hellsing Organisation, while bombs fall. Doubt even a vampire can survive a nuke. Pretty much, Integra dies: rocks fall, everyone dies.
26. Ghost Story by Sting (Lyrics)
The moon's a fingernail and slowly sinking
Another day begins and now I'm thinking
That this indifference was my invention
When everything I did sought your attention
You were my compass star
You were my measure
You were a pirate's map
A buried treasure
If this was all correct
The last thing I'd expect
The prosecution rests
It's time that I confess: I must have loved you
In Memoriam: Another likely outcome. They all survive: Integra ages, marries, dies but leaves a legacy. One day Alucard reflects upon his first female Master and his unspoken feelings.
27. Hand of Sorrow by Within Temptation (Lyrics)
The child without a name grew up to be the hand
To watch you, to shield you, or kill on demand
The choice he'd made he could not comprehend
His blood a grim secret they had to command
Please forgive me for the sorrow
For leaving you in fear
For the dreams we had to silence
That's all there'll ever be
Still I'll be the hand that serves you
Though you'll not see that it is me
So many dreams were broken and so much was sacrificed
Was it worth the ones we loved and had to leave behind
So many years have past, who are the noble and the wise?
Will all our sins be justified?
Courtly Love: Likely outcome. Alucard’s saved and continues to serve as Integra’s weapon and knight, their relationship continues as strong as ever despite the many regrets they both have.
28. Who needs forever by Astrud Gilberto (Lyrics)
Who needs forever
Love me today
Let's forget tomorrow
It's too far away
So hold me
Don't waste this moment
Let's live this moment like it's the last
Time goes so fast
Love Shouldn't linger
Love shouldn't wait
When fates allow a choice of now or never
Who Needs Forever
Happy Ending: Very unlikely, but the outcome Alucard and Integra do get together (and Alucard survives). This song fits for Manga Alucard’s love and admiration for humanity, he doesn’t care about forever, he finds vampires, monsters and those creatures, inferior, aging, the fickleness of mortality is highly praised by him. He’ll love her… human.
“Now I see, ja. She's a GOOD master. Und she appreciates Alucard's efforts.”
(Major about Integra, volume 4)
Apocrypha
29. Goodbye my Lover by James Blunt (Lyrics)
Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.
I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.
Fulfillment: This goes to all the good Alucard/Integra fics in which there is a happy ending for the couple. A touch more sappy than the canon interaction songs because fic, and fanon, is for wistful thinking. Vampire Hunter D crossovers, specially. Any story with a happy outcome (to balance the angst and darkness in the overall mix). It’s also dedicate to Mish, who plays Alucard, in polychromatic to my Integra and there, after over a year of interaction and intense development, have come together, “engaged.” Obviously, Integra tops. Thing song has something particular sanity and romance but a macabre air in the lyrics that fit to a merrier side of the couple.
30. Love Song for a Vampire by Annie Lennox (Lyrics)
Once I had the rarest rose
That ever deigned to bloom
Cruel winter chilled the bud
And stole my flower too soon
Oh loneliness
Oh hopelessness
To search the ends of time
For there is in all the world
No greater love than mine
Saccharine Ending: This made it to the fst because Mish (noblesseoblige) likes the song, I was searching a flattering description of this but I think fits with the overly sappy, saccharine fics with poor characterization. They are also there, so a tribute for them! Thankfully, the AxI corner of the fandom doesn’t have Integra as a past chick’s reincarnation usually. *cue to run from Mish nao* It's the lyrics above go wrong.
"Only my beloved Master."
(Alucard to Walter, volume 9)
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Posted in fanmix & integraxalucard ♥♥
(Arthur Hellsing's will to his daughter, Integra)
Sir Integra Fairbrook Wingates Hellsing and Alucard (or should I say, Count Dracula) are (alongside the police girl turned to newbie vampire, Seras Victoria) the main characters of the Anime/Manga, Hellsing. She’s the human leader of the Organisation and a knight of the Royal Protestant Order and he’s the ace under her command and mastership. Together they fight the forces of the night to protect the United Kingdom. Alucard and Integra have an intriguing and complex dynamics of master/servant with unresolved sexual tension, obvious admiration and respect for each others with degree of strong symbiosis that draws many, making them the most popular pairing in the fandom. This is a tribute to one of my favorite couples of the series (after Pip/Seras).
Special thanks to pookles13 for the cover and talia_of_eragon for the backcover.
"Welcome back, Count."
"Good to be home, Countess."
(Integra and Alucard, volume 8).
Dramatis Personage
1. Meant to Live by Switchfoot (Lyrics)
Dreaming about providence and
whether nicer men have second tries.
Maybe we've been living with the eyes half open,
maybe we're banned and broken. (broken)
We were meant to live for so much more.
Have we lost ourselves
somewhere withinside,
somewhere withinside?
We were meant to live for so much more.
Have we lost ourselves
somewhere withinside,
somewhere withinside?
The King: Human!Dracula's song. As showed in his flashback, he had a dream of building God's Jerusalem in earth and wanted to bring Him down to live among the people. A seasoned, bitter warrior who died unfulfilled against his Father's indifference.
2. King Nothing by Metallica (Lyrics)
Wish I might
Wish I may
You wish your life away
Are you pacified?
All the wants you waste
All the things you chased
Then it all crashes down
And you break your crown
And you point your finger
But there's no one around
Just want one thing
Just to play the king
But the castle's crumbled
And you're left with just a name
Where's your crown, King Nothing?
Where's your crown?
No Life King: Alucard's a compelling character because with all his power, he's a loser, he owns nothing, not even his own will. He plays ruler still sat on his "throne" in the basement, but he's just a broken soul who is grasping old glories and unable to find peace: his castles are long gone. He is no longer a king, no longer a man of God, no longer a man and he suffers for this. He regrets his mistake. This is mostly Manga Alucard.
3. The Girl with the Weight of the World in Her Hands by Indigo Girls (Lyrics)
She won't recover from her losses,
She's not chosen this path, but she watches who it crosses
Maybe move to the right, maybe move to the left
So we can all see her pain she wears like a banner on her chest
And we all say it's sad, and we think it's a shame
And she's called to our attention, but we do not call her name,
The girl with the weight of the world in her hands.
We're busy with our happiness, busy with our plans
I wonder if alone she wants it taken from her hands
But if things didn't get any harder
She might miss her sacred chance to go a consecrated martyr,
The girl with the weight of the world in her hands.
Young Master: Integra was born to be the shield and sword of the United Kingdom against supernatural forces and enemies of its Church. She was raised and inhereted this title when her father passed away. She was only a twelve years old girl (thirteen, in the Anime/Tv series) who kissed her childhood good-bye to enter into a harsh adulthood, starting with her uncle's murder. She carries the weight to be a knight, the leader of Hellsing and Alucard's Master. Far from escaping this fate (as most "chosen ones" do), she embraces this with pride and dignity.
4. The Tower by Vienna Teng (Lyrics)
She turns up the light
Anticipating night falling tenderly around her
Watches the dusk
The words won't come
She carries the act so convincingly
The fact is sometimes she believes it
She can be happy with the way things are
Be happy with the things she's done
And yet I need not to need
Or else a love with intution
Someone who reaches out to my weakness
And won't let go
I need not to need
I've always been the tower
But now I feel like the flower trying to bloom in the snow
Master: Integra grows and blooms into a beautiful, fiesty but very lonely woman. She is the Iron Maiden, the tower few can enter. She watches everything under her (sometimes) stoic mask, trying to convince her acts and orders were justified. This is hard when she loses her men or she has to command the deaths of humans (volume 4) and loved ones (Walter in volume 9).
"I thought a knight in shining armor would await me, instead this. If such fantasies were to come reality, I would be happy."
(Young Integra, volume 1).
Once Upon a Time
5. Control by Poe (Lyrics)
Don't you mess with a little girl's dream
'Cause she's liable to grow up mean
Surprised you to find that I'm laughing?
You thought that you'd find me in tears
You thought I'd be crawling the walls
Like a tiny mosquito and trembling in fear
Well you may be king for the moment
But I am a queen understand
And I've got your pawns and your bishops
And castles
All inside the palm of my hand
While you were looking the other way
While you had your eyes closed
While you were licking your lips
'Cause I was miserable
While you were selling your soul
While you were tearing a hole in me
I was taking control
Now I have taken control
...CONTROL
Now I have taken control
...CONTROL
NOW I HAVE TAKEN CONTROL
...CONTROL
Not an Ingenue: A song to portray young Integra's struggle for the mastership of Alucard. She challenged him in her fear, not backing down his advances and wining his respect and admiration. Their relationship start with powergames and continue with it.
6. Deception by Cruxshadows (Lyrics)
She cries, children often do
When they're cold, and hungry too,
Come closer, look deeply in her eyes
So delicate, quite unlike her smile
Life clinging backwards,
In the fall of dread confusion,
Still this silence gnaws upon your fingertips,
All-yielding prayer, for instant isolation,
Far more sinister than the price of doubt,
Yet you remain,
Still you remain,
And she says:
Pray for daylight,
Pray for morning,
Pray for an end to our deception,
Not a Guardian Angel: In the Anime, it's very obvious Alucard became fixated on Integra since their meeting, her eyes, in particular, he turned Seras Victoria into a vampire because her eyes reminded him to hers (according to the interview with Gonzo in Newtype). This is a companion with the other song. She endured despite everything and displayed her courage against him. This shows the rots of Alucard's advances, the start of their twisted relationship filled with games to alleviate his boredom. He's an old, proud and powerful vampire who became impressed by this young, human girl.
7. Holding up for a Hero by Frou Frou (Lyrics)
Where have all the good men gone
And where are all the gods?
Where's the street-wise Hercules
To fight the rise of odds?
Isn't there a white knight upon a fiery steed?
Late at night I toss and turn and dream of what I need
I need a hero
I'm holding out for a hero 'til the end of the night
He's gotta be strong
And he's gotta be fast
And he's gotta be fresh from the fight
I need a hero
I'm holding out for a hero 'til the morning light
He's gotta be sure
And it's gotta be soon
And he's gotta be larger than life
The Damsel in Distress: Departure from the intense, creepy tv series first meeting; in the Manga, the meeting between Alucard and Integra is far more cordial and archetypically romantic. Integra wishes for a knight in shining armor to save her from her greedy uncle while curling next to the corpse she found in the basement. Little she knew the corpse will rise to protect her and answer her prayers.
8. Silent Lucidity by Queensryche (Lyrics)
If you open your mind for me
You won't rely on open eyes to see
The walls you built within
Come tumbling down, and a new world will begin
Living twice at once you learn
You're safe from pain in the dream domain
A soul set free to fly
A round trip journey in your head
Master of illusion, can you realize
Your dream's alive, you can be the guide but...
I- will be watching over you
I- am gonna help to see it through
I- will protect you in the night
I- am smiling next to you....
The Knight in Shining Armor: Unlike Anime Alucard, Manga Alucard is an avid protector and lover of humanity (humans not dogs), he's devoted to Integra without tests or trials, he's her guardian and protector, he's there to watch over her dreams (not always mean literal, but goals) while she guides him through this path he cannot walk alone any longer. He beheld how the little girl killed her own uncle and became a woman, his Master. So it began.
9. No Fear by The Rasmus (Lyrics)
Girl,
You lived your life like a sleeping swan
Your time has come
To go deeper
Girl,
Your final journey has just begun
Destiny chose the reaper
No Fear
Destination Darkness
No Fear
Destination Darkness
No Fear
Ten Years Ago: Their journey begins... Integra (in both accounts) is fearless about Alucard, this is important in their relationship, her lack of fear and what I tried to exalted in this song and this fanmix: She's not afraid of darkness, she fights against its forces and lives with it everyday. In a way, her relationship with Alucard is exactly the opposite to Seras', who to date in the Manga, looks afraid of Alucard.
"Have you ever thought of me sucking your blood?"
“Why don’t you read my mind?”
“I want to hear it from your lips.”
(Alucard and Integra, episode 11)
Their Animated Story
10. Addicted by Kelly Clarkson (Lyrics)
It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me
His influence: While this mean to be by both canons, and the issue of Alucard as drug for his Masters is brought in the Manga, I will place the lyrics more fitting for the tv series. Alucard is always invading her space, prying with questions she shouldn’t ask, tempting her. She knows he’s harmful but always relies on him.
11. Poison by Alice Cooper (Lyrics)
Your cruel device,
Your blood like ice.
One look could kill,
My pain, your thrill.
I wanna love you, but I better not touch (don't touch)
I wanna hold you, but my senses tell me to stop
I wanna kiss you, but I want it too much (too much)
I wanna taste you, but your lips are venomous poison
You're poison runnin' through my veins
You're poison, I don't wanna break these chains.
Her influence: Likewise, I think this fit more in the tv series canon. There is this building tension, between both of them, always at the edge of the knife, but he won’t touch her, he offers, tempts, argues, but never touches. Her blood is the sweetest thing he has tasted and runs through his veins giving his slumbering corpse life in the first place. He may yank the chain but will never break them, he’s terrified at the idea of losing his Master to death.
12. Mine by Savage Garden (Lyrics)
Won't you leave me in the darkness.
Take away the pride, all the dignity that's burning inside.
Can't you see I'm standing naked.
I'll bear all the crosses and the crucifixes you can provide.
If you could decide.
Just a twist in time ...and you could be mine
Just a sip of wine ...and you could be mine
Just a kiss divine ...and you could be mine
Possessiveness: In all honestly, this song also fits Manga Alucard (who calls Integra his beloved Master and only his recently), but I placed it here to give some sense of identity to each bit. Alucard has always wanted Integra, this particular scene, I believe fits when he offers her his blood in episode 11, he was straightforward, bared in both concern and offering, while she changed subjects and walked away without giving him an answer.
14. The Hand that Feeds by Nine Inch Nails (Lyrics)
For the blood
On which we dine
Justified in the name of the holy and the divine
Just how deep do you believe?
Will you bite the hand that feeds?
Will you chew until it bleeds?
Can you get up off your knees?
Are you brave enough to see?
Do you want to change it?
Rebellious Streak: Alucard is no tame puppy and, in episode 8, he gives a taste to his Master about what a target may feel. This is to portray their struggle with themselves and Integra’s to her fellow knights. After all, her loyalty may not last forever if everything they do (unlike the manga) is to betray her.
14. Judith by A Perfect Circle (Lyrics)
You're such an inspiration for ways
That i will never ever choose to be.
Oh so many ways for me to show you
How your savior has abandoned you.
Thank(fuck) your god.
Your lord, your christ
He did this,
Took all you had
And left you this way.
Still you pray, never stray,
Never taste of the fruit.
Never thought to question why.
Temptation: Abandoned by her Church, her Queen, her allies with her organization destroyed and framed by crimes that weren’t hers, Integra spends time in jail still recovering from a deadly injury in her neck. Alucard arrives, breaks the glass of wine, cuts his own hand and asks her orders. And her choice.
15. The one I Love by The Rasmus (Lyrics)
Haven't slept in a week
My bed has become my coffin
Cannot breath, cannot speak
My head's like a bomb, still waiting
Take my heart and take my soul
I don't need them anymore
This bed has become my chapel of stone
A garden of darkness to where I'm thrown
So take my life, I don't need it anymore
The Choice: Integra’s answer is never uttered. Alucard smirks, so does she. Blood drips in a pool and fades to black. I’m giving an educated guess of what would have happened, a repeat from their meeting, only in reverse.
"... Hah! Hahah! Hahahah. Hahah. Hahahahahah! Rogerrr. Yes. That's the last fig leaf. How splendid! It prompts a stirring in my loins, Integra!! In that case, I'm going out shooting. Watch closely. Sir Hellsing."
(Alucard to Integra, Volume 3)
Their Documented Story
16. Downfall by Matchbox Twenty (Lyrics)
Here we go again
Ashamed of being broken in
We're getting off track
I wanna get you back again
I want you to trouble me
I wanted you turning down
I want you to agree with me
I want so much so bad
Come on and lay it down
I've always been with you
Here and now
Give all that's within you
Be my savior
And I'll be your downfall
Mmm mmm mmm
Savior and Downfall: This is the song that best portrays their interaction in the Manga. Both characters represent their failures and salvations. Integra’s a human, using a dangerous, addictive monster as Alucard could bring her downfall but he helps her time and time again. Alucard’s a vampire, serving the descendant of the one who defeated him is a sign of downfall, but her will and orders keep him from falling further into his senseless cycle.
17. Harbor by Vienna Teng (Lyrics)
Sail your sea
Meet your storm
All I want is to be your harbor
The light in me
Will guide you home
All I want is to be your harbor
Anchor: Alucard journeys to many places, even away from the country, but he always returns readily to his Master’s side and, when they met, she’s always smiling for him and he always goes right to meet her first. She’s the anchor he has, the symbol of home he has to return. She knows it. Those little details that make a relationship complex.
18. Unknown Soldier by Breaking Benjamin (Lyrics)
Borderline, dead inside.
I don't mind, falling to pieces.
Coming in, violin, let's begin.
Feeding the sickness.
How do I simplify, dislocate, the enemy is on the way
Full of fear, everclear.
I'll be here, fighting forever.
Curious, venomous, you'll find me climbing to heaven.
Nevermind, turn back time.
You'll be fine, I will get left behind.
Soldier: Alucard kills. He’s a monster. He’s her dog, her weapon. She can dream, but his dreams are long gone. He is fighting forever, for her or for the fight itself. This song is to portray Alucard’s role in Hellsing.
19. My Medea by Vienna Teng (Lyrics)
So come to me my love
I'll tap into your strength and drain it dry
Can never have enough
For you I'd burn the length and breadth of sky
For it's my thoughts that bind me here
It's this love that I most fear
And this child I would destroy
For I hold her pain most dear
Pitiful Fate: Alucard’s fate is destroy everything he loves in the fires of war and, in Hellsing, he has been leading Integra around, unconsciously, to ignite another war by baiting her to order conflicts in volume 3 and forward, feeding in her strength of will to combat. He’s aware of this pathetic life he has to live and wants Anderson to kill him, placing an end to his senseless pain. Presumably, in my honest opinion, to put an end to the conflict before his thirst for battle destroys Integra (and Seras).
20. Loneliness by Annie Lennox (Lyrics)
Hopelessness
is the darkness in your heart
It's the sound of one hand clapping
While it's pulling you apart
Woa and I know
Yes and I know
What you feel
Understanding: Obviously, his plans fails and Anderson becomes a monster, forcing Alucard to kill him. He’s very impressed upon this and recalls his lost humanity, lamenting what happened, breaking down in the battlefield. Quietly, Integra watches and reflects what her father said about how miserable vampires were, she isn’t shocked by Alucard’s pain unlike the other witnesses, she’s sad. She understands what he’s enduring in her unspoken way. She offers no comfort, Anderson is doing the talking, instead (silent and gloomy) gives a tribute to both fallen warriors of God: she's exactly like them before their determination faltered and knows.
21. She Will Have Her Way by Neil Finn (Lyrics)
I might be old but I'm someone new she said
I'm so sore that I could cry always
In the night lay your tired arms
She will have her way
Somehow I will still believe her
Trust: After Anderson dies and Walter appears, Integra issues orders to kill her traitorous butler and Major calls her forth the Zeppelin. They almost at the same time assume what the other will do. Integra’s going to end this war, Alucard encourages her, assuring he’ll deal with Walter, she has trust in his word and is half the way when he proposes it. A good team who communicates with words and actions.
"Vampire. Dracula. Nosferatu. No Life King. Count. That man has lived on many moons, devouring an even larger number of people's desires. There is nothing left for him anymore: a castle, a kingdom, or people to inhabit such... or his beloved's heart. Not even his own heart. From war to war, he erases everything in his sight, even in times of complete peace. He's a ghost, a ghost walking... walking ever forward."
(Arthur Hellsing to his daughter, Integra. Volume 9)
Unwritten Endings
22. What have you done by Within Temptation (Lyrics)
Would you mind if I killed you?
Would you mind if I tried to?
Cause you have turned into my worst enemy
You carry hate that I don't feel
It's over now
What have you done?
What have you done now?
I, I've been waiting for someone like you
But now you are slipping away
What have you done now?
Why? Why does Fate make us suffer?
There's a curse between us
Between me and you
Human vs Monster: In the potential scenario Alucard goes insane by Major’s poisoning plan (and isn’t just going to disappear), this song fits Integra having to fight her servant for their sakes, for him to reach peace and to save the world she has to protect. Only a human will kill him, he won’t allow anyone who isn’t human have the honor of defeating him.
23. Forgiven by Within Temptation (Lyrics)
I know it was destined to go wrong
You were looking for the great escape
To chase your demons away
For so long, I’ve tried to shield you from the world
You couldn’t face the freedom on your own
Here I am
Left in silence
You gave up the fight
You left me behind
All that stands forgiven
You’ll always be mine
I know deep inside
All that stands forgiven
His Peace: Integra upon the possible (and at the moment the most likely, I say) outcome: Alucard’s death, his soul finally reaching the peace he wants. He’s forgiven for his shortcomings and given peace.
24. Haunted by Poe (Lyrics)
Come here
No I won't say please
One more look at the ghost
Before I'm gonna make it leave
Come here
I've got the pieces here
Time to gather up the splinters
Build a casket for my tears
I'm haunted
(By the lives that I have loved)
I'm haunted
(By the promises I've made)
I'm haunted
By the hallways in this tiny room
The echos there of me and you
The voices that are carrying this tune
Imprisonment: A walk in the head of crazy!Alucard in a less likely outcome in which Integra’s forced to lock him in the basement after he proves to be too dangerous under the effects of the poison. Delirious, alone, filled with regrets, he calls for Integra in his cell.
25. The Ghost of You by My Chemical Romance (Lyrics)
At the top of my lungs in my arms she dies
She dies
At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I? Should I?
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I? Should I?
And all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me
For all the ghosts that are never gonna catch me
Tragedy: Probably the least likely of the outcomes, Integra’s death in battlefield, and well, the end of the “world” or England. Her presence alive is what stops Sir Islands from nuking the hell out London and move to Canada. And the hand that leashes Alucard from his destructive urges. These would be Alucard’s thoughts in the Hellsing Organisation, while bombs fall. Doubt even a vampire can survive a nuke. Pretty much, Integra dies: rocks fall, everyone dies.
26. Ghost Story by Sting (Lyrics)
The moon's a fingernail and slowly sinking
Another day begins and now I'm thinking
That this indifference was my invention
When everything I did sought your attention
You were my compass star
You were my measure
You were a pirate's map
A buried treasure
If this was all correct
The last thing I'd expect
The prosecution rests
It's time that I confess: I must have loved you
In Memoriam: Another likely outcome. They all survive: Integra ages, marries, dies but leaves a legacy. One day Alucard reflects upon his first female Master and his unspoken feelings.
27. Hand of Sorrow by Within Temptation (Lyrics)
The child without a name grew up to be the hand
To watch you, to shield you, or kill on demand
The choice he'd made he could not comprehend
His blood a grim secret they had to command
Please forgive me for the sorrow
For leaving you in fear
For the dreams we had to silence
That's all there'll ever be
Still I'll be the hand that serves you
Though you'll not see that it is me
So many dreams were broken and so much was sacrificed
Was it worth the ones we loved and had to leave behind
So many years have past, who are the noble and the wise?
Will all our sins be justified?
Courtly Love: Likely outcome. Alucard’s saved and continues to serve as Integra’s weapon and knight, their relationship continues as strong as ever despite the many regrets they both have.
28. Who needs forever by Astrud Gilberto (Lyrics)
Who needs forever
Love me today
Let's forget tomorrow
It's too far away
So hold me
Don't waste this moment
Let's live this moment like it's the last
Time goes so fast
Love Shouldn't linger
Love shouldn't wait
When fates allow a choice of now or never
Who Needs Forever
Happy Ending: Very unlikely, but the outcome Alucard and Integra do get together (and Alucard survives). This song fits for Manga Alucard’s love and admiration for humanity, he doesn’t care about forever, he finds vampires, monsters and those creatures, inferior, aging, the fickleness of mortality is highly praised by him. He’ll love her… human.
“Now I see, ja. She's a GOOD master. Und she appreciates Alucard's efforts.”
(Major about Integra, volume 4)
Apocrypha
29. Goodbye my Lover by James Blunt (Lyrics)
Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.
I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.
Fulfillment: This goes to all the good Alucard/Integra fics in which there is a happy ending for the couple. A touch more sappy than the canon interaction songs because fic, and fanon, is for wistful thinking. Vampire Hunter D crossovers, specially. Any story with a happy outcome (to balance the angst and darkness in the overall mix). It’s also dedicate to Mish, who plays Alucard, in polychromatic to my Integra and there, after over a year of interaction and intense development, have come together, “engaged.” Obviously, Integra tops. Thing song has something particular sanity and romance but a macabre air in the lyrics that fit to a merrier side of the couple.
30. Love Song for a Vampire by Annie Lennox (Lyrics)
Once I had the rarest rose
That ever deigned to bloom
Cruel winter chilled the bud
And stole my flower too soon
Oh loneliness
Oh hopelessness
To search the ends of time
For there is in all the world
No greater love than mine
Saccharine Ending: This made it to the fst because Mish (noblesseoblige) likes the song, I was searching a flattering description of this but I think fits with the overly sappy, saccharine fics with poor characterization. They are also there, so a tribute for them! Thankfully, the AxI corner of the fandom doesn’t have Integra as a past chick’s reincarnation usually. *cue to run from Mish nao* It's the lyrics above go wrong.
"Only my beloved Master."
(Alucard to Walter, volume 9)
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