JUST finished my freakin' paper
And it's only 12:35 AM. Ugh. I am feeling tired (per-fucking-petually tired).
I am so grateful for help and the miracle of the wonderous technology that is the Panasonic transcription machine that arrived TODAY!!
Let me tell you that transcribing from a tape of quiet voices and lots of ambient noise just fucking SUCKS. SUCKS I say.
On the other hand, I had a good session with my therapist tonight. Essentially I admitted that I don't know what the fuck to have faith in aside from doom and the gravitational suck of my DNA, upbringing, and year after fucking year of stretching toward new behavior only to give up time and again to sink into my own personal little morass from hell. And then I pick myself up, dust myself off, put on my BIG GIRL PANTIES and do something about it... for a while... until it doesn't work and I get dejected and disappointed and fucking tired. Ugh. Enough already.
Time to fucking SLEEP.
I am so grateful for help and the miracle of the wonderous technology that is the Panasonic transcription machine that arrived TODAY!!
Let me tell you that transcribing from a tape of quiet voices and lots of ambient noise just fucking SUCKS. SUCKS I say.
On the other hand, I had a good session with my therapist tonight. Essentially I admitted that I don't know what the fuck to have faith in aside from doom and the gravitational suck of my DNA, upbringing, and year after fucking year of stretching toward new behavior only to give up time and again to sink into my own personal little morass from hell. And then I pick myself up, dust myself off, put on my BIG GIRL PANTIES and do something about it... for a while... until it doesn't work and I get dejected and disappointed and fucking tired. Ugh. Enough already.
Time to fucking SLEEP.