Weekend updat, & cleanse day 6
I keep reminding myself that I am NOT fasting and I am not starving. It's just a cleanse. I am getting enough to eat. It's plenty. It's fine. And I am so aware of my inner gremlin -- my little rage-in-the-machine with a squinched up, pinched, tight, pained face like everything hurts and tit's SOOOOooooo bad and this cleanse thing isn't working ("because nothing ever does"). But then I notice that I am not having night sweats. And the only reason I would wake up in the middle of sleep is because I had a little too much liquid later in the evening and need to pee. And the PEE is either clear or light yellow now ('cept when I have a beet, then it goes a little pinkish). I'm now on day #6 of my cleanse. I've progressed through consuming raw, non-starch veggies, lemon juice, and tea (days 1 & 2) to adding in cooked non-starch veggies and a couple servings of certain fruits (days 3 & 4), then adding another okay fruit (days 5 & 6).
The mental gremlin is having periodic freakouts' on the no protein, no starch, no sugar blah blah thing. Went to a play party the other night and there was lots of food. At one point I scanned the table to see if there were any veggies I could have and there weren't any. So I just had to steer clear of that area. My sense of smell is heightened, intense. And I feel thick and slow... like sludge is moving through me. I'll need to take a nap today, I'll bet. The gremlin in me wants to "change" things and alter them because nobody outside of me REALLY knows, blah blah blah. But tomorrow, I add the rest of my okay fruits, avocado, chicken & fish, olive oil, and supplements.
My time off of work is almost at an end as I go back tomorrow. I don't wanna. But maybe it'll be okay.
The weekend ended up to be nice. Saw Suzanne for a massage and saw the movie "Oriinal Pride" on Friday night. Saturday I got to walk in the AM. In the afternoon, I stretched Hilary. REALLY enjoyed our session. It was fun and I feel gratified to know she is still feeling the results. Had enough time to see Linda and get my hair done (nothing so good as a prolonged scalp massage!!) and a quick manicure too. Bob and I went to a play party and got to visit with some folks too. Sunday morning was CoED - a smaller crowd (because there was a Tribal Fire dance session the night before, perhaps?) attended. I kept moving, but because I didn't get enough sleep, my body felt sluggish, cold. I just could NOT warm up! And Paul's music mostly did not move me. Some of his songs were okay, but mostly I just couldn't connect. AND, I suppose it'll be that way sometimes. But next week *I* am the DJ! I've already come up with a nice mix. Yay! Did some stuff around the house and then we went to Penny's for family photos (and it's been a few years since we last did that!) because Bob and his siblings are surprising their mom with a group visit and a bunch of family photos for her birthday next month. Sweet! Finally, Daniel and I went to see the movie Ice-Age 2, which was cute. I enjoyed spending time with Dan. And, it was good to laugh at silly stuff for a bit.
Today I get to see my chiropractor. My low back feels sort of weak and off and I gotta keep care so I don't go into a spasm. Tonight is my Sexuality class (or rather, late this afternoon... and early evening). I am debating on whether to attend the Monday night dance session just to get some more music and movement or to just go home and take a bath. I suppose the body will let me know what would be best later...
The mental gremlin is having periodic freakouts' on the no protein, no starch, no sugar blah blah thing. Went to a play party the other night and there was lots of food. At one point I scanned the table to see if there were any veggies I could have and there weren't any. So I just had to steer clear of that area. My sense of smell is heightened, intense. And I feel thick and slow... like sludge is moving through me. I'll need to take a nap today, I'll bet. The gremlin in me wants to "change" things and alter them because nobody outside of me REALLY knows, blah blah blah. But tomorrow, I add the rest of my okay fruits, avocado, chicken & fish, olive oil, and supplements.
My time off of work is almost at an end as I go back tomorrow. I don't wanna. But maybe it'll be okay.
The weekend ended up to be nice. Saw Suzanne for a massage and saw the movie "Oriinal Pride" on Friday night. Saturday I got to walk in the AM. In the afternoon, I stretched Hilary. REALLY enjoyed our session. It was fun and I feel gratified to know she is still feeling the results. Had enough time to see Linda and get my hair done (nothing so good as a prolonged scalp massage!!) and a quick manicure too. Bob and I went to a play party and got to visit with some folks too. Sunday morning was CoED - a smaller crowd (because there was a Tribal Fire dance session the night before, perhaps?) attended. I kept moving, but because I didn't get enough sleep, my body felt sluggish, cold. I just could NOT warm up! And Paul's music mostly did not move me. Some of his songs were okay, but mostly I just couldn't connect. AND, I suppose it'll be that way sometimes. But next week *I* am the DJ! I've already come up with a nice mix. Yay! Did some stuff around the house and then we went to Penny's for family photos (and it's been a few years since we last did that!) because Bob and his siblings are surprising their mom with a group visit and a bunch of family photos for her birthday next month. Sweet! Finally, Daniel and I went to see the movie Ice-Age 2, which was cute. I enjoyed spending time with Dan. And, it was good to laugh at silly stuff for a bit.
Today I get to see my chiropractor. My low back feels sort of weak and off and I gotta keep care so I don't go into a spasm. Tonight is my Sexuality class (or rather, late this afternoon... and early evening). I am debating on whether to attend the Monday night dance session just to get some more music and movement or to just go home and take a bath. I suppose the body will let me know what would be best later...