this is for those of you.. who got angry for what i said in my previous entry.
synth3tiksnow : they dont understand what it meant then.
ASugarHighYoukai : actually... i dont either.....
synth3tiksnow : i knew everyone would be mad.
ASugarHighYoukai : im not mad
ASugarHighYoukai : i just dont know wot you meant by that
synth3tiksnow : well....
synth3tiksnow : honeslty i didnt mean those exact words by it.. i should have said it differently. but i was extremely mad. usually when i update my journal.. im emotional.. and i say things that i feel at the time.. and at the time.. i just wanted my friends back.. and i was so angry that a simple thing as ditching could make me loose my BEST BEST BEST friends.
synth3tiksnow : i was crying so much
synth3tiksnow : all i wanted was my old life back
synth3tiksnow : and i said they suck because..,all we do together when im with them is ditch and senak out.. they werent a good influence on me at all....
synth3tiksnow : and they ALWAYS FLIRT with me..
synth3tiksnow : and i HATE the fact that when i started hanging out more with them...
synth3tiksnow : the more that egdar and eric started to like me.
synth3tiksnow : NOW THAT is why i said they suck
synth3tiksnow: because they like me.
ASugarHighYoukai : hmmmmmn
synth3tiksnow : because i cant stand hanging out with them when they CONSTANTLY say to me ( eric- hey edgar likes you. go out with him.)
synth3tiksnow : (edgar- i think eric likes you)
synth3tiksnow : i fucking hate that shit
synth3tiksnow i hate hanging out with guys that like me.
synth3tiksnow : it fucking sucks
synth3tiksnow : knowing they like me. and they probably wouldnt even be hanging out with me if they didnt like me.
synth3tiksnow thats what fucking sucks about them
synth3tiksnow : so you see. they should not be upset in any way towards me. if anything.. they should be mad at themselves for liking me in the first place.
ASugarHighYoukai : but if they like you.. it isnt their fault
ASugarHighYoukai : they like you
synth3tiksnow : true. but i mean.. they let it get to them. they make it obvious. they make me not want to be around them. they flirt constantly. they get all touchy and stuff.
ASugarHighYoukai : yeah
ASugarHighYoukai : that would get annoying
synth3tiksnow : it made it fucking suck being around them.
synth3tiksnow : i just wanted some friends.
synth3tiksnow : because i had just lost my old friends.
synth3tiksnow : all wanted was guys who i can hang out with and nothing more,
synth3tiksnow : but they started to like me more and more.
synth3tiksnow: and it fucking sucked.
synth3tiksnow : they hate me now.
synth3tiksnow : and they dont understand.
synth3tiksnow : they didnt know what i meant by what i said.
ASugarHighYoukai : explain it to them
ASugarHighYoukai : and if theyre still mad, fuck em
synth3tiksnow : exactly. what i meant by that sentence makes perfect sence. they just took it the wrong way.
synth3tiksnow : you know exactly how i feel now.
ASugarHighYoukai : yeah
synth3tiksnow : if they are mad. then thats stupid. they have no reason to be after i explain it to them. fuck em if they are still mad.
ASugarHighYoukai : exactly
EXACTLY