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Well Im doing well. Im making a few changes and feeling better about things. I can't wait until I can get out of the house but not as I used to be. My mom has been in surgery and today fell and hurt herself pretty bad. I been doing what I can to help out at home but Its hard. Im no longer angry at my family. I'll never enjoy anything if I always hold something negative toward what I care about. Especially life. But Im still not happy with things. Guy's are a problem with me. They take girls and treat them with no respect. I mean if you are going to care about them don't put them in a light as your possession. At the movies, today, their was this couple and the guy was talking to his friends and going "look what I got" "check it out". It makes me angry. I mean I have to admit I hadn't given the respect to who deserved it at all times. But no wonder girls think guy's are not going to make them happy.
I want to make the right choice in saying no one is perfect but their is a point where there can be no excuse. Many guys play sex as a game and girls are hurt by it. Its more than that, its treating them more than a person, but as the most Im person who you share the most with. To help them achieve their goals in life. I want to be the thing constant to not worry about and strong, instead of complaining about whats wrong in my life when I can fix things for my self. I know saying this wont change anything, but I will. I want to change for me. I want to be less of the needy and more of the needed... the one not pushing my problems at someone as they come to me with theirs... Why feel bad for yourself? You can be sad about thing that go on but not complain about them all the time. Its hard to hear someone say they don't want to come to you because you make them feel worse. Im going to be better at listening without saying my thing every time. I feel bad about how I was but not bad about myself. Lets hope others will notice my change and enjoy it.