WARNING - sentimental bullshit ahead

[sir_awesome]

tonight was fun, i got to hang with all the guys for the first time in awhile. i did'nt get to talk to brit long though being her phone was dieing, and when it wasnt her cell was crapping out, so hopefully shell read this tommrow and know that a <3 her very much now back to scary things. i ran into bear/shark today. I have made it a point to remove all shitty people from my life, i don't deal with any fuckers i don't want to and i have been on a roll with this line of being for awhile now then i saw that scary crazy ass bitch, i don't think i've ever felt more scared or uncomfertable in a long time. i think back to those times and it was just sad. i don't like to think about it, because she is a crowning examle of how stupid and weak and desperate i could be. seeing that her today also showed me how good i have it now, she is every thing i hate in a human, brit chalenges me and i can talk to her about the stupidest shit and not feel, well.. stupid, its a very scary feeling careing for someone more then you care about yourself, i think i realy do love brit. and i thank brit for dealing with all my bullshit shes sees sides in my that very few people get and although they might creep her out i think she generally understands me. i think every guy has that one bear/shark attack in his life just to show how low you can crawl. i'm glad i've picked myself back up.

i now work at movie warehouse go me. a whoping 5.16 an hour. thats right the LOWEST AMOUNT LEGALY POSSIBLE i'm sure theyed like to pay me less but that damn government... sigh. ah well its gas in my tank and new tires. fell free to comment on my bullshit. horay for the internet giveing me a place to put my flaws and thoughts on a piller for your reading pleashure.