a much needed update
so it's been a while since i've last updated on lj. i've just been so busy with school and work that this has been on the bottom of my to-do list. for the past two weeks, i've had midterms on top of essays and work to worry about. but it's all good. life's just floating by. i'm taking things one day at a time. cigar told me that things were all complicated because i make it out to be in my head, which is true, so now i'm trying to keep things relevant. if it's not something that needs to be handled in the near future, i'm not going to think about it.
anyways...so school has been relatively rough. there's TOO much going on for each class. when i'm done with one assignment, i have to start the next one...it never ends. but i'm keeping up with it. the assignments are controlling me but i can't wait until i control them...haha..
work is good. work is fun. i think i'm getting more active with the COHO scene. I've been to one get together each week since the 2nd week of the quarter. it's nuts to party with these people. it's like a set family. we work together, we party together. tonight there's going to be a halloween party and i'm going with Gette. she's so cool. i like her. we go to all the parties together. it's funny because she has this crush on Dee and it's so adorable because i know he's crushing on her too. I don't know why these two won't get together...it's too cute. he confides in me and tells me that he's interested in getting to know her but he's too shy to start anything. i'm like, "dude, why don't you just start a conversation with her." anyways, i hope they get together, or at least try something, soon because i don't like being in the middle. i like how it's so 3rd grade, but come on now, it's been 3 weeks, say something to her!
for me, well, the romance part of life is on hold. i have too much work to worry about. i would like to have a someone is my life, but i don't want him to be another item on my to-do list. i already have too much going on. i need to just suck it up this quarter and do my work. my priorities are set. however, if there's a guy who is willing to come whenever i call, then that'll be great. i just don't want a relationship right now...booty-calls would be just fine..hheehe. however, there isn't a guy that i'm crushing on. there's so okay guys at the CH but none that are really fiiine. there is this one guy that i think is 'hot' but he works in a different area. i'll give him enough time to notice me then i'll introduce myself.
it sucks working food service. i eat too much!!! we make cookies, cakes, salads, sandwiches, burritos, pizza, and every other school item and i end up eating at least 1 meal a day of buttery crap. it's great that they feed me, but i'm getting fat off the food. the cookies and cakes are delicious but i NEED to stop eating them. watch, in a month, i'll gain 7 lbs and would regret taking the CoHo job.
family - i haven't been home since i started school again. it's sad. i miss my family but i just don't have time to go see them anymore. i want to help my mom out but what can i do in fucking nowhere, california. hopefully i'll get to see them during the weekend of my birthday.
rant: i'll be turning 22 SOON. i hate it. it was just like yesterday when i was complaining about turning 21. why does time have to pass so quickly?!! i want to stay forever young. i don't want to grow up, i want to be a toys r us kid. anyways, so 22 is almost here. i'm hoping that i can go to antioch on the 11th to celebrate with my mom and then to sf on the 13th and 14th to finish things off. i want to give myself a birthday present. maybe a new piercing, lip or nose, or maybe a tattoo...i need to do something drastic while i still can. or i can just bleach and dye my hair super red...kinda boring but at least its something. i'll ask EST about it first.
Hmm..what else.
HAPPY HALLOWEEN. i hope everyone's getting out there and getting their ffrrreeeaaaakkkk on. i know i will!
anyways...so school has been relatively rough. there's TOO much going on for each class. when i'm done with one assignment, i have to start the next one...it never ends. but i'm keeping up with it. the assignments are controlling me but i can't wait until i control them...haha..
work is good. work is fun. i think i'm getting more active with the COHO scene. I've been to one get together each week since the 2nd week of the quarter. it's nuts to party with these people. it's like a set family. we work together, we party together. tonight there's going to be a halloween party and i'm going with Gette. she's so cool. i like her. we go to all the parties together. it's funny because she has this crush on Dee and it's so adorable because i know he's crushing on her too. I don't know why these two won't get together...it's too cute. he confides in me and tells me that he's interested in getting to know her but he's too shy to start anything. i'm like, "dude, why don't you just start a conversation with her." anyways, i hope they get together, or at least try something, soon because i don't like being in the middle. i like how it's so 3rd grade, but come on now, it's been 3 weeks, say something to her!
for me, well, the romance part of life is on hold. i have too much work to worry about. i would like to have a someone is my life, but i don't want him to be another item on my to-do list. i already have too much going on. i need to just suck it up this quarter and do my work. my priorities are set. however, if there's a guy who is willing to come whenever i call, then that'll be great. i just don't want a relationship right now...booty-calls would be just fine..hheehe. however, there isn't a guy that i'm crushing on. there's so okay guys at the CH but none that are really fiiine. there is this one guy that i think is 'hot' but he works in a different area. i'll give him enough time to notice me then i'll introduce myself.
it sucks working food service. i eat too much!!! we make cookies, cakes, salads, sandwiches, burritos, pizza, and every other school item and i end up eating at least 1 meal a day of buttery crap. it's great that they feed me, but i'm getting fat off the food. the cookies and cakes are delicious but i NEED to stop eating them. watch, in a month, i'll gain 7 lbs and would regret taking the CoHo job.
family - i haven't been home since i started school again. it's sad. i miss my family but i just don't have time to go see them anymore. i want to help my mom out but what can i do in fucking nowhere, california. hopefully i'll get to see them during the weekend of my birthday.
rant: i'll be turning 22 SOON. i hate it. it was just like yesterday when i was complaining about turning 21. why does time have to pass so quickly?!! i want to stay forever young. i don't want to grow up, i want to be a toys r us kid. anyways, so 22 is almost here. i'm hoping that i can go to antioch on the 11th to celebrate with my mom and then to sf on the 13th and 14th to finish things off. i want to give myself a birthday present. maybe a new piercing, lip or nose, or maybe a tattoo...i need to do something drastic while i still can. or i can just bleach and dye my hair super red...kinda boring but at least its something. i'll ask EST about it first.
Hmm..what else.
HAPPY HALLOWEEN. i hope everyone's getting out there and getting their ffrrreeeaaaakkkk on. i know i will!