"fine i'm just a stupid little idiot"
it's been way to long since i've updated this thing. i have to so much that i should have written.. anyways..
my summer was freakin awesome. i went to Australia, New Zealand, Camp, and the Beach. it was all sooooooooooooooooooooo much fun! then school started. school has so far been really good. except the fact that i have the most boring day. lol seriously.. i go to chorus and sit there, i go to honors chem and sit there, i go to spanish 2 and sit there, then i go to weight lifting and hang out with 39 guys. (well i mean you know 4th is pretty fun! LOL) but i'm ready to get out and move and meet new ppl and grow up.. sorda. i don't wanna get older then like.. idk.. i'm kinda scared to grow up. but i'm ready for it.
everything is normal with the girls again. well we don't really hang out with Kandace or talk to her anymore. we don't ever see her, so thats really all thats changed. plus everything seems to be A LOT LESS dramatic THANK GOD! but school is good, friends are good, and family is crazy like always.
today is Bailey's birthday!! she turned 4! she's growing up! :-\
even tho MANY (to many) words have been said and so many things have been done, i feel like nothing has changed. i mean it's the same thing still.. arguing all the time (over dumb stuff) looking at each other in silence just to make the other mad. i wish that i could change things. things really need to change. i thought a summer apart would work things into place.. but i was totally wrong. i miss the way things used to be when a call could be made just to tell each other about our love interest at the time. i makes me so upset that i feel like i'm losing someone so close. but now anytime a love interest comes up.. i feel like to many things are said to make them not like me anymore. :-\ but at the same time i can't say that.. b/c it's not true. it's just how i feel. it's my lack of self-confidence kicking in to say that. like i don't know what to do anymore. and i'm pretty sure that now everytime we talk it's a play. i must say, we are some pretty good actors. but i guess thats what happenes sometimes, right? let's just work things out to be the best of FRIENDS.
i love you all be good and safe.. have fun!!!
Love-Kimberly