There and Back Again (no, not a Hobbit movie entry)
Sometimes, we need to force a change. We can't sit and stagnate, rehashing the same history over and over again. We can't keep watching something wither and die. Sometimes, we have to realize that it's just time to plant something new in more fertile ground so that there can the joy of watching something blossom and grow and live again. There's no happiness to be found in the husk of something that once was. I'll keep the memories of when it was most beautiful, cherish them, knowing that there can be wondrous things out there, and I will move on, saddened but accepting that all things grow and all things eventually die.
Five long years and this is the place I have finally reached. I want to feel good again. I want to be around people who make me smile and who smile too when they see me. I want to take care of myself and allow myself to grow in whatever direction the winds take me. I want to stop living in the shadow of a past and stop trying to force it back into the light.
Melodramatic? Definitely. It's how I'm feeling as I move to turn the page on another chapter of my life. I'm apprehensive about what the future may hold, who may be sharing it with me, but as a survivor, as a Dragon, I know that there will be a future regardless.
Five long years and this is the place I have finally reached. I want to feel good again. I want to be around people who make me smile and who smile too when they see me. I want to take care of myself and allow myself to grow in whatever direction the winds take me. I want to stop living in the shadow of a past and stop trying to force it back into the light.
Melodramatic? Definitely. It's how I'm feeling as I move to turn the page on another chapter of my life. I'm apprehensive about what the future may hold, who may be sharing it with me, but as a survivor, as a Dragon, I know that there will be a future regardless.