my life is getting worse
past+present news:
well college is crap i hate it, ive made some new kinda friends but i feel that im losing my other friends...i need to get this off my chest i cant tell anyone but i need to get it out of me...its all about a girl. her name is amanda main. ive had a crush on her for about 9 months now. and its killing me i mean whenever im around her im happy and it just takes her to smile for me to be happy. however she doesnt feel the same way, so i got used to the idea i would never well go out with her or and i thought we were good friends but i dunno anymore i just get the idea she doesnt. i cant do anything about that but it tears me up inside. ANd its not just that now coz i feel that whenever i talk to someone the thing they wanna do is just leave me like they dont wanna talk to me or something like that. so im lonely i guesse coz i got no one left but the again ive always been alone...
future:
nothing to look forward to really ohwell
well college is crap i hate it, ive made some new kinda friends but i feel that im losing my other friends...i need to get this off my chest i cant tell anyone but i need to get it out of me...its all about a girl. her name is amanda main. ive had a crush on her for about 9 months now. and its killing me i mean whenever im around her im happy and it just takes her to smile for me to be happy. however she doesnt feel the same way, so i got used to the idea i would never well go out with her or and i thought we were good friends but i dunno anymore i just get the idea she doesnt. i cant do anything about that but it tears me up inside. ANd its not just that now coz i feel that whenever i talk to someone the thing they wanna do is just leave me like they dont wanna talk to me or something like that. so im lonely i guesse coz i got no one left but the again ive always been alone...
future:
nothing to look forward to really ohwell