old life
i have recently been wanting to go back to my old life, in a way.
i used to be very popular, at school, at church, etc, but when i was raped i lost a part of who i was. my church basically kicked me out (but in the very seattle, passive-agressive way), i stopped keeping up with people, and everyone is only so willing to go out of their way to keep in contact with you.
earlier today i started looking into getting back into communication with some of the closer friends from before. started with garfield (which mostly got nothing), then went to church, once i started finding the church people i realized how pathetic my life is, they are living the lives they wanted, and here i am, and i gave up.
with my current trying to get back on track, maybe i should just wait until my life is going a bit better, and then say hi . . .