Mental and emotional breakdown.
I think I am on the verge of breaking down. Not purely because of work,which yes is driving me slightly crazy with the insanity and chaos with this new class, but also the recent events that have been happening around me in relation to friends who are relatively close. The slow and gradual realization that some of them may not be who they appear to be, especially when you think you had known them quite well, as well as the actions they have been carrying out which is equally, if not more, perturbing due to the causes and current ongoing state of events.
What is scaring me more is that these appear to be 'expanding' in the various circles of friends which I have.
It has gone to the point where I really feel the need to talk to somebody about them, to possibly shed some light and help realign some of my perspective to make myself less stressed out and perturbed about it all. And I realize that I don't have anybody to talk to - because firstly my circles don't merge so there is no one person whom i can go to; secondly I am NOT able to talk about them because of the whole secretiveness of incidents and events; thirdly I don't know who to talk to even amongst the respective circles/cliques; fourth I'm kinda starting to lose my trust and faith in people around me, slowly and gradually.
I really wished that I still had him to talk to, because he understands my way of thinking and had always been the one who put things into perspective for me, regardless of any matter relating to anyone. Sadly, he is no longer around and was likely one of the people whose actions had first confounded me.
What can I do? :'(
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What is scaring me more is that these appear to be 'expanding' in the various circles of friends which I have.
It has gone to the point where I really feel the need to talk to somebody about them, to possibly shed some light and help realign some of my perspective to make myself less stressed out and perturbed about it all. And I realize that I don't have anybody to talk to - because firstly my circles don't merge so there is no one person whom i can go to; secondly I am NOT able to talk about them because of the whole secretiveness of incidents and events; thirdly I don't know who to talk to even amongst the respective circles/cliques; fourth I'm kinda starting to lose my trust and faith in people around me, slowly and gradually.
I really wished that I still had him to talk to, because he understands my way of thinking and had always been the one who put things into perspective for me, regardless of any matter relating to anyone. Sadly, he is no longer around and was likely one of the people whose actions had first confounded me.
What can I do? :'(
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