A dramatic life or peaceful life?
I used to think that I was, and am, able to handle all sorts of dramas in the lives of people around me - complicated relationships, family problems, internal family conflicts with their parents etc. Even more so when these are people whom have been in my life for more than a decade, people whom I consider to play a pivotal role in my life, whom I feel can be the ones who make me feel grounded to who I really am.
But recently, I somehow feel that I'd very much prefer to have a more peaceful life, one where I won't be entangled in all these dramas. Sometimes, even the knowledge of the dramas are starting to make me feel a bit fearful and perturbed - not of the person(s) involved but rather of the possibilities of the future. Not that I don't like to be informed about such happenings - to a large extent, I actually feel rather honoured & privileged to know of these events because not a lot of people know about them, and I know it's because of the trustworthiness in me that allows people to tell me about such disappointments & setbacks in their lives - but perhaps I need to start to reassess my thoughts on what I really am looking for in the future: the possibility of having a life with lots of drama or just a peaceful life.
Life is so full of ironies all the time, ain't it?
But recently, I somehow feel that I'd very much prefer to have a more peaceful life, one where I won't be entangled in all these dramas. Sometimes, even the knowledge of the dramas are starting to make me feel a bit fearful and perturbed - not of the person(s) involved but rather of the possibilities of the future. Not that I don't like to be informed about such happenings - to a large extent, I actually feel rather honoured & privileged to know of these events because not a lot of people know about them, and I know it's because of the trustworthiness in me that allows people to tell me about such disappointments & setbacks in their lives - but perhaps I need to start to reassess my thoughts on what I really am looking for in the future: the possibility of having a life with lots of drama or just a peaceful life.
Life is so full of ironies all the time, ain't it?