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The smile that cut's so deep.
Her wave was so breife.
Yet it im so breathless i could not speak.
Miserable at her feet begging for sweet relief.
Lost to what once was bliss.
Something i will never have again.
Love.
Wishing for release from my internal struggle for relief.
But inside i have forgotten what maid me so rotten.
lost & stolen by past devotion.
wishing for false notion of word's spoken.
Love not Forgotten, unspoken.
Life is moving froward, i have had setbacks but i am still so healthy i am eating only what is good for me in fact im doing a raw food diet that mean i can only eat fresh fruit & veg & nuts nothing processed at all. i will have green teat fruit,jalapeños,& lots of water & it will flush my system out give me more energy than ever before & will increase my matablalizm. i have lost 39 kg now & all i have left to lose is another 20kg &i will be the weight i have wanted back , yay to be me, & once i have sorted that i will build some more mussel mass, :P what i have atm just wont do Who can say vandesil.
Second i move into my new house over this weekend i will finally have my apartment in north Fremantle close to everything & my work. i managed to get brand new couches tv frdige everything to put into my new place so not only is it my place but it is fully decked out with everything i need , i have some wear i can call home that i worked for & i put together.
Apart from that work is going well i am still enjoying my job & was promoted & given a pay raise , YAY 2 B me :P. Now that i am closer to my work i will be able to mix my shifts up a little an make life easier also no more Earlie mornings unless im spending the time constructively instead of on public transport. & im close anuf to ride to work everyday adding to my heath program.
Thing's are falling into place in my general life, i think that if i persavear i will make it in this world of crap lol, but there are other thing's that still play heavily on my mind & heart. sometimes i wonder why i cant get into a healthy cycle within a relationships & the only healthy cycle i had was with my x of 6 years & that ended in dismay due to my actions, i didn't do anything wrong just i didn't do everything i should have done right, so hear i am again lost, i see her in many aspects of my life an wish that thing's could be different.
Hopefully thing's will work out, i am responsible i work hard i do all the right thing's perhaps i will get a break lol.
Nothing Ventured Nothing gained. BLAH BLAH..
Her wave was so breife.
Yet it im so breathless i could not speak.
Miserable at her feet begging for sweet relief.
Lost to what once was bliss.
Something i will never have again.
Love.
Wishing for release from my internal struggle for relief.
But inside i have forgotten what maid me so rotten.
lost & stolen by past devotion.
wishing for false notion of word's spoken.
Love not Forgotten, unspoken.
Life is moving froward, i have had setbacks but i am still so healthy i am eating only what is good for me in fact im doing a raw food diet that mean i can only eat fresh fruit & veg & nuts nothing processed at all. i will have green teat fruit,jalapeños,& lots of water & it will flush my system out give me more energy than ever before & will increase my matablalizm. i have lost 39 kg now & all i have left to lose is another 20kg &i will be the weight i have wanted back , yay to be me, & once i have sorted that i will build some more mussel mass, :P what i have atm just wont do Who can say vandesil.
Second i move into my new house over this weekend i will finally have my apartment in north Fremantle close to everything & my work. i managed to get brand new couches tv frdige everything to put into my new place so not only is it my place but it is fully decked out with everything i need , i have some wear i can call home that i worked for & i put together.
Apart from that work is going well i am still enjoying my job & was promoted & given a pay raise , YAY 2 B me :P. Now that i am closer to my work i will be able to mix my shifts up a little an make life easier also no more Earlie mornings unless im spending the time constructively instead of on public transport. & im close anuf to ride to work everyday adding to my heath program.
Thing's are falling into place in my general life, i think that if i persavear i will make it in this world of crap lol, but there are other thing's that still play heavily on my mind & heart. sometimes i wonder why i cant get into a healthy cycle within a relationships & the only healthy cycle i had was with my x of 6 years & that ended in dismay due to my actions, i didn't do anything wrong just i didn't do everything i should have done right, so hear i am again lost, i see her in many aspects of my life an wish that thing's could be different.
Hopefully thing's will work out, i am responsible i work hard i do all the right thing's perhaps i will get a break lol.
Nothing Ventured Nothing gained. BLAH BLAH..