a darker shade of green.

[sinturnersin]

Seeing past the bullshit.
Looking beyond my pride.
Holding in these feeling's
Trying so very hard.
I can barely think to watch.
things unfolding in my mind.
Nothing hurts so much as this.

Thought's of decite an miss belief.
Thing might turn into fear's within.
just out of view shadows by you.
i Want to look but fear your look
I contemplate if i should.
i wish i could know its safe
but i cant shake the feeling of hate.

I want you to be free an safe.
to feel though there is no gate.
Walk as you will wear you wish.
to never feel like you have to twist.
ill give you what you ask of me.
ill turn an twist to satisfie you.

but each time i hold my tong
look away or ignore your fun.
it cut's a little in my soul
just don't bleed everything i adore.