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this is my last LJ post for the forseeable future.
after going back to atlanta for my wedding, i realized what i left behind...but moreso, WHY i left it behind. it's nothing personal to anyone on my friends list, but maybe to a few who were recently removed? who knows...
all i know is that at this point in my life, i've realized that there are other aspects that i need to concentrate on...my wife, my family (by blood, by choice, by fuzziness)...
there are aspects of my professional life that i need to spend more time on. i gave myself a deadline for getting my work out to agents, as an illustrator and a graphic designer. there's my wife's career, which will inevitably intertwine with my own, someday down the road, in our final destination...
i am done with the club scene...i left atlanta thinking to reshape the dallas scene...but came to realize that the "scene" is not what i am. but in atlanta, that's all i was. as of new years, i made the conscious choice not to do another club performance. i'm done. hell, i haven't even liked most of the music in over 5 years anyways.
i don't want to be a 30 year old burnout working retail who only cares about having the latest obscure german cd, having a $500 outfit that i sacrificed food for, and getting blitzed out of my mind 5 nights out of the week...fuck...i was there at 24, and i don't want that anymore...going on 26, i've had to rethink some of my priorities...
i have my wife, my kids (the fuzzy kind, who we love as our own flesh & blood), and my whole career ahead of me.
time to concentrate on my own life...my future...our future...
after going back to atlanta for my wedding, i realized what i left behind...but moreso, WHY i left it behind. it's nothing personal to anyone on my friends list, but maybe to a few who were recently removed? who knows...
all i know is that at this point in my life, i've realized that there are other aspects that i need to concentrate on...my wife, my family (by blood, by choice, by fuzziness)...
there are aspects of my professional life that i need to spend more time on. i gave myself a deadline for getting my work out to agents, as an illustrator and a graphic designer. there's my wife's career, which will inevitably intertwine with my own, someday down the road, in our final destination...
i am done with the club scene...i left atlanta thinking to reshape the dallas scene...but came to realize that the "scene" is not what i am. but in atlanta, that's all i was. as of new years, i made the conscious choice not to do another club performance. i'm done. hell, i haven't even liked most of the music in over 5 years anyways.
i don't want to be a 30 year old burnout working retail who only cares about having the latest obscure german cd, having a $500 outfit that i sacrificed food for, and getting blitzed out of my mind 5 nights out of the week...fuck...i was there at 24, and i don't want that anymore...going on 26, i've had to rethink some of my priorities...
i have my wife, my kids (the fuzzy kind, who we love as our own flesh & blood), and my whole career ahead of me.
time to concentrate on my own life...my future...our future...