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backup plan
when no one else is around for you to call on
i hear the rintone of desperation in the next room
it's probably more mitiful that i let you in again
than it is waiting around to pick you up
when they let you fall i will always be around to catch you
no matter how badly i try to walk away
maybe it will be my fault when i hear the sound
of you hitting the ground
at least thats the impression i seem to get
i've always been around weven when you weren't
and you've gone away for what seemed like ages
and i've never once budged
not for anyone
and i'm beginning to wonder whywhy it's always ok me ME to be the last once picked
and why no one can ever put things on hold when I need them
and why i'm on the bottom of everyon's list
and why i care so much for all of you
and so rarely feel it in return
i'm here for advice
and sometimes a shoulder to dcry on
and to feel like i can open myself up
and give myself to you sometimes body
and always soul
and to ask for the same in return
but never be good enough to get back what i give
i'm always quiet about it
beacuse if i voice it to you the blame will be
on me
i take things the wrong way
too literally
to heart
sometimes i wish i could be so closed off
aso to spark something in you all
to realize just how much it hurts
to not be the friend i thought i was
to not be the girl you get excited for
to not be the one so sure of herself
to be the one inside none of you see
to be your back up plan
and never just michelle.
-6/9/04 7:22pm
when no one else is around for you to call on
i hear the rintone of desperation in the next room
it's probably more mitiful that i let you in again
than it is waiting around to pick you up
when they let you fall i will always be around to catch you
no matter how badly i try to walk away
maybe it will be my fault when i hear the sound
of you hitting the ground
at least thats the impression i seem to get
i've always been around weven when you weren't
and you've gone away for what seemed like ages
and i've never once budged
not for anyone
and i'm beginning to wonder whywhy it's always ok me ME to be the last once picked
and why no one can ever put things on hold when I need them
and why i'm on the bottom of everyon's list
and why i care so much for all of you
and so rarely feel it in return
i'm here for advice
and sometimes a shoulder to dcry on
and to feel like i can open myself up
and give myself to you sometimes body
and always soul
and to ask for the same in return
but never be good enough to get back what i give
i'm always quiet about it
beacuse if i voice it to you the blame will be
on me
i take things the wrong way
too literally
to heart
sometimes i wish i could be so closed off
aso to spark something in you all
to realize just how much it hurts
to not be the friend i thought i was
to not be the girl you get excited for
to not be the one so sure of herself
to be the one inside none of you see
to be your back up plan
and never just michelle.
-6/9/04 7:22pm