I've so fucked up.
Ugh, I can't help it. I just wanna sit here and cry. It's so hard, I've fucked up so much. I've pushed the only person away that matters. I throw a fit and cling on to him, and now my Saturday is ruined. I've completely destroyed my day, and I can't fix it. Does anyone know how badly it hurts to be told he doesn't want to be with you today? I cried all night last night because of my stupidity. He's literally the only thing that matters and it HURTS just so much to hear that he "needs" to be away from me. Fuck my life. I'm a failure.