things like these come in 3's... cracker please
I had a pretty shitty weekend. my match on sat was good except for the finish. I was planning on taking sun off and just relaxing and doing nothing but I had to go to dave's visitation, not a good time. It reminded me of a scar face song. I've never seen a man cry til I seen a man die. I have never thought I would see certain people ever shed a tear well I was wrong and that bothered me more than I thought it would. there is nothing wrong with a man crying at all but just seeing people that you think would never show emotion crying is not easy for me to handle. While I was growing up my brother always told me that men don't cry. and if I ever cried he would punch me and tell me to stop and be a man. and so now it is almost impossible for me to cry around people. I did cry for a millisecond in big al's last week after we were all there and drinking and telling stories about dave. But I shut it off until I got home. I didn't cry at the visitation although I know I could have but I just wouldn't let myself.
At the visitation I saw a girl that I have known for a long time cause I worked with her brother at chef john's. and she tells me john has pretty much lost his battle with MS. He has been in the hospital for 2 weeks and is now in a coma. the family has decided to do the best thing for him and pull the plug sometime this week. but they are waiting for people to come say their goodbyes while he might be able to hear them. Yeah he's in a coma but there is a chance that he might hear how many people love him and are going to miss him. that man did so much for me he gave me my apprenticeship to be a chef. he helped me out when I needed it. He would bend over backwords for all of his employees, like they were family. and actually believed that they were family. that is one man that I am never going to forget and I hope he knows this. I think about him every time I cook. I think what would john put in this or how would he make sauce for this. I still cook things that he came up with for his menus and I still have things that I came up with on his menus.
That is 2 and they always say that deaths happen in 3s I hope this to be wrong cause I don't want to loose anyone else.
At the visitation I saw a girl that I have known for a long time cause I worked with her brother at chef john's. and she tells me john has pretty much lost his battle with MS. He has been in the hospital for 2 weeks and is now in a coma. the family has decided to do the best thing for him and pull the plug sometime this week. but they are waiting for people to come say their goodbyes while he might be able to hear them. Yeah he's in a coma but there is a chance that he might hear how many people love him and are going to miss him. that man did so much for me he gave me my apprenticeship to be a chef. he helped me out when I needed it. He would bend over backwords for all of his employees, like they were family. and actually believed that they were family. that is one man that I am never going to forget and I hope he knows this. I think about him every time I cook. I think what would john put in this or how would he make sauce for this. I still cook things that he came up with for his menus and I still have things that I came up with on his menus.
That is 2 and they always say that deaths happen in 3s I hope this to be wrong cause I don't want to loose anyone else.