nothing much to do
i'm really bored...i'm at my aunt's house babysiting... my cousin brendon went to sleep at about 9:30 so now all i have is lauren and brooke...they fight all the time...i'm just waiting for the ball to drop at midnight... i have been talking to ronny alot lately...he is being all emo...he is keeping me waiting for his answer about us..i'm getting sick of him... i'm watching the news...it's about that tidal wave...that's some fucked up shit...i feel really bad for them...and the job hunt is going really bad ... no one is hiring...what the hell am i supposed to do all day now that i dropped out... i have nothing to do so i'm just gonna keep talking about stupid shit... i feel so stupid about having sex with ben when i did... i mean i was only 15... but i guess when you live in detroit you grow up fast...i just wish my first time meant something...i wish it wasn't just something that happened because i was to scared to say no because i thought he would break up with me...even though i no he wouldn't of...i wish i got tested for STD's because he was cheating on me and i don't no what that bitch has... i hope he is a good daddy...his kid has to be almost 2 now...or maybe a little over 2...i don't no... i got to go