Could I have missed my chance and watched you walk away..?
Todays my last day in Wellington, I come back Friday night.
Christchurch.
My plane leaves 9:45 tonight.
Gets in 10:30.
How excited am I?
I dont need to answer that.
I miss home so much... And I know how dissapointed I'm going to be, cause Christchurch isnt my home now, any more than Wellington is.
Staying home alone on a Friday
Flat on the floor looking back on old love...
Or lack thereof.
After all the crushes have faded,
And all my wishful thinking was wrong,
I'm jaded,
I hate it
Jenaya did my eyebrows today. She got rid of all the things that annoy me about them. Am I happy, or am I happy? It looks fuckloads better. Now all I need to do is figure out what the hell to do about my hair. Oh, and sometime soon I'm gonna buy a new bikini, my current one is like a size too big on the pants and too small for my boobs. Stupid bigger-than-averageness :P
This time tomorrow I'll be with Caitlin. In Christchurch. Back home. If I could take back all this year, and probably keep going back, till very early last year, when I was starting Papanui, probably in my french class with Hamish and Chelsea and Nicole, believe me, I'd go in an instant. I could never go back now, things have changed, but to go to a time before I changed, before they changed, before my whole world changed, when I was happy being the person who I was, and didnt try and be anything for anyone except myself...
Gods, I'll go crazy if I keep thinking these If Only's. Its never going to happen, Maria.
Get over it.
Grow up.
Top Five:
1) Love Song for No One
2) Not Myself
3) Love Soon
4) Back to You
5) Your Body is a Wonderland
And yes, I have all five. If you were smart, you'd have them too.
Dunno why. I've got an obsession with him, recently.
Oh well... better than Billy Joel, I guess... :P
(But not by much)
Well, I guess I'll be off. Those of you who bothered to read this will be wondering what the fuck I'm on by now, I guess.
But I'm just in a weird mood.
Honest.
No, wait, I take that back.
I'm just being myself :)
I'll miss y'all and I'll try and email most of you while I'm gone - I'll be at Caitlins place most of the time, I should have internet access, if I ask real nice and dont abuse it :P
Lis - you left your jacket here, I'll drop by later to give it to you, or whoever is home, otherwise just come around when you read this, I'll make sure the family know what your looking for and where it is.
Love ya!! :)
Christchurch.
My plane leaves 9:45 tonight.
Gets in 10:30.
How excited am I?
I dont need to answer that.
I miss home so much... And I know how dissapointed I'm going to be, cause Christchurch isnt my home now, any more than Wellington is.
Staying home alone on a Friday
Flat on the floor looking back on old love...
Or lack thereof.
After all the crushes have faded,
And all my wishful thinking was wrong,
I'm jaded,
I hate it
Jenaya did my eyebrows today. She got rid of all the things that annoy me about them. Am I happy, or am I happy? It looks fuckloads better. Now all I need to do is figure out what the hell to do about my hair. Oh, and sometime soon I'm gonna buy a new bikini, my current one is like a size too big on the pants and too small for my boobs. Stupid bigger-than-averageness :P
This time tomorrow I'll be with Caitlin. In Christchurch. Back home. If I could take back all this year, and probably keep going back, till very early last year, when I was starting Papanui, probably in my french class with Hamish and Chelsea and Nicole, believe me, I'd go in an instant. I could never go back now, things have changed, but to go to a time before I changed, before they changed, before my whole world changed, when I was happy being the person who I was, and didnt try and be anything for anyone except myself...
Gods, I'll go crazy if I keep thinking these If Only's. Its never going to happen, Maria.
Get over it.
Grow up.
Top Five:
1) Love Song for No One
2) Not Myself
3) Love Soon
4) Back to You
5) Your Body is a Wonderland
And yes, I have all five. If you were smart, you'd have them too.
Dunno why. I've got an obsession with him, recently.
Oh well... better than Billy Joel, I guess... :P
(But not by much)
Well, I guess I'll be off. Those of you who bothered to read this will be wondering what the fuck I'm on by now, I guess.
But I'm just in a weird mood.
Honest.
No, wait, I take that back.
I'm just being myself :)
I'll miss y'all and I'll try and email most of you while I'm gone - I'll be at Caitlins place most of the time, I should have internet access, if I ask real nice and dont abuse it :P
Lis - you left your jacket here, I'll drop by later to give it to you, or whoever is home, otherwise just come around when you read this, I'll make sure the family know what your looking for and where it is.
Love ya!! :)