Why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday?

Aug 15, 2003 20:21

Hey.
Its an update, see?
With words.
And feelings.
And unvagueness.
Well, maybe. If I get around to it.
Alright, so my life at the moment has its ups and its downs, as always.
And I sort of am in a bad mood, so I should keep this short, for fear of offending more people than I please.
But I'll do that anyway. I always do. I try to please one person, end up pissing off four. Try to please those four people, end up hurting someone completely different.
So I guess I should really just fuck it all and do as I please.
If only it was that easy, eh? :P Apparently I care too much. Apparently I dont think about myself enough.
Fuck that.
I dont think about myself, dont care about myself, really dont give a shit either way about myself, because I'm not worth it.
Other people dont seem to see that, until its too late and they've gotten all la-dee-da about me and start talking about how incredible I am and all the rest of that utter bull... and then when I do something that shows them how much of an idiotic, pathetic, manipulated bitch I am, they turn and walk away.
But by that time I've already learnt to care about them and rely on them and I believe what they say, god knows why, when they say they'll stay by my side forever.
Call me a fool, but "forever" seems to be getting real short these days.
Yeah, call me a fool anyway.
Ok, trying to type before THIS song is over. I'm never going to get this finished, am I? Its taken me an hour and a half (on and off) already :P
Maybe I should just give up.
Yeah, thats a good idea.

Come up to meet ya, tell you I'm sorry,
You dont know how lovely you are
I had to find you, tell you I need ya,
And tell you I set you apart
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