(no subject)
regrets hammering my skull tonight
bullets of a hundred rejections
ricocheting in my brain
she is usually here
but this night I think she took my advice
and ran for cover
these are the nights when the unbreakable break
the undeniable are denied
and the irrational begin to make sense
tonight I understand
i torture myself with pictures
surround myself with the familiar
could-have-beens
to remind myself of never-wills
i take my torture very personally
tonight I will tell myself everything
hold nothing back
interrogate myself to find myself
a lost person in a scrambled brain
hook me up to wires
plug me in
step back and watch me burn
smell that? it smells like something wonderful
like formaldehyde and baby powder
death and birth
it's all backwards from here
~J.Sin
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Copyright 2004 - Sinnersphere Productions
bullets of a hundred rejections
ricocheting in my brain
she is usually here
but this night I think she took my advice
and ran for cover
these are the nights when the unbreakable break
the undeniable are denied
and the irrational begin to make sense
tonight I understand
i torture myself with pictures
surround myself with the familiar
could-have-beens
to remind myself of never-wills
i take my torture very personally
tonight I will tell myself everything
hold nothing back
interrogate myself to find myself
a lost person in a scrambled brain
hook me up to wires
plug me in
step back and watch me burn
smell that? it smells like something wonderful
like formaldehyde and baby powder
death and birth
it's all backwards from here
~J.Sin
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Copyright 2004 - Sinnersphere Productions