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[sinners_r_us]

okay so lacy called me the other day and she got to go to a fucking dashboard concert!!! and i always hate it when i go to a concert and i see kids holding up their cell phones so their stingy ass friends can hear the concert and not put up the 40$ ticket fee like the rest of us blue collars...but then ironically enough i became the kid on the other end of the cell phone and it was amazing. i know it sounds weird but dashboard is just as impressive over the phone as they are in person and that says alot about a band. idk...i started crying and everything bc all the songs reminded me of that one awesome summer where nothing mattered except my friends, parties, and of course amc. and i started wishing that i didnt have to grow up and that we all didn't have to leave each other just so that we could make a place for ourselves in this world ( and right now this world isn't looking so good if you ask me).i just started missing high school. i just started missing lacy and all the times that someone was there for her when times were getting rough and that someone wasn't me.........and then i started thinking the scariest thing.......

what if instead of fighting, which is what i thought i was doing all along, in reality, i was actually giving up?
what if i actually took the easy way out? idk but sometimes those thoughts just get into my head and it freaks me the FUCK out.

on a nicer note me and eric are planning on going up to see lacy and her puppy "hustler" on sept.14 so lacy you better get ready bc we will rape you and you will like it ;)

i also just paid for my college today and i registered for the academic competitiveness grant so wish me luck!

much love from n.c.-
lauren rosinski

p.s. i love my new name..it is so me lol