*sparks of sudden interest and truth*
I know now that when you come out of a shitty situation where you lose a part of yourself or something or someone who is important to you, you begin to appreciate the things you would have taken for granted in the past. Great moments become huge moments, kind gestures translate into thoughtfulness that you can't even describe, simple pleasures become valuable and the decisions you make going forward are most often thought out or devilishly spontaneous-and always for the best.