I just got off the phone
My ex was willing to fill out the forms and I spoke with her for an hour.
I am relieved, but also feel sadened at the same time. Someone on my FriendsList mentioned she spoke with her ex and felt guilty and sad. I was being a little insensitive I guess and put too much reflection into my own. I apologized ... but still.
I feel the same way. I was very comfortable talking to her and her kids are finally recovering :-) She is doing better and they are all happy moving on to their next stages of whatever life has in store. I was anxious over nothing.
I now feel guilty that I let them down. I wondered what the fuck happened?!
It already has been past time to move on. However I realized I need some therapy. SERIOUSLY. I do not want to repeat my past mistakes. I want to make sure I never change someone again. I want to kmow what caused everything to happen? I hate this and realize I can't figure it out on my own, but I need to before I can be in a healthy relationship with anyone else again. I feel like crap.
In other news ...
I just heard this song on the radio and I love it!! No, I am not implying anything with this video as it is unrelated to my post from earlier in the day.
I am relieved, but also feel sadened at the same time. Someone on my FriendsList mentioned she spoke with her ex and felt guilty and sad. I was being a little insensitive I guess and put too much reflection into my own. I apologized ... but still.
I feel the same way. I was very comfortable talking to her and her kids are finally recovering :-) She is doing better and they are all happy moving on to their next stages of whatever life has in store. I was anxious over nothing.
I now feel guilty that I let them down. I wondered what the fuck happened?!
It already has been past time to move on. However I realized I need some therapy. SERIOUSLY. I do not want to repeat my past mistakes. I want to make sure I never change someone again. I want to kmow what caused everything to happen? I hate this and realize I can't figure it out on my own, but I need to before I can be in a healthy relationship with anyone else again. I feel like crap.
In other news ...
Click to viewI just heard this song on the radio and I love it!! No, I am not implying anything with this video as it is unrelated to my post from earlier in the day.