Expect not to see much posts from me
I need to find a job and this computer is prohibiting rather than helping me do what I need to do.
I am going to lay off livejournal, facebook, and World of Warcraft. I may even put my desktop away in the garage for awhile and just use my crappy notebook until I have something lined up or at least until I can work 5 hours a day applying for work.
I feel anxiety and intimidation feeling up job apps. The only references I had from Riverside Unified were Anne's friends so I can't use them anymore. It is crippling me and it is a negative learned behavior. It started last year and I do not know what to about it.
Sigh
I really hate this!
Saw a fortune teller
The question I asked was should I start my own business or look for a job in the classifieds since I have an issue with references and stable work +2 years.
Oddly, she brought up friendships and relationships. She said I am looking backwards and I am in a spiral because I can't let go of something. The cards showed the spiral and a strong tear for torn. That is Anne. :-(
Basically she saw me running a business but not right now. She said I can't get new friends, jobs, or relationships because I am too emotionally distraught and fail to realize it is over.
... PS I never mentioned a word about relationships at all! Just work. ... weird but she is right. She dumped my ass and likes someone else now. Ome of my new LJ friends I added noticed I try to undo mistakes thinking there are always second chances instead of just dealing with consequences.
I also had a disturbing dream where I was holding and trying to take care of a cat. These dreams with cats are bad luck dreams that deal with dominating females. I was watching a movie about divorce where both a father and son get divorced and I was hiding the cat and holding it like a baby in the movie theater. I went outside where it was cold and snowy wondering where we are going to live a lot like Alaska. I ended up in a car but had no place to go. In the movie there were occult worshipers summoning demons too to ruin the life of the father and son who just wanted to get away.
I am going to lay off livejournal, facebook, and World of Warcraft. I may even put my desktop away in the garage for awhile and just use my crappy notebook until I have something lined up or at least until I can work 5 hours a day applying for work.
I feel anxiety and intimidation feeling up job apps. The only references I had from Riverside Unified were Anne's friends so I can't use them anymore. It is crippling me and it is a negative learned behavior. It started last year and I do not know what to about it.
Sigh
I really hate this!
Saw a fortune teller
The question I asked was should I start my own business or look for a job in the classifieds since I have an issue with references and stable work +2 years.
Oddly, she brought up friendships and relationships. She said I am looking backwards and I am in a spiral because I can't let go of something. The cards showed the spiral and a strong tear for torn. That is Anne. :-(
Basically she saw me running a business but not right now. She said I can't get new friends, jobs, or relationships because I am too emotionally distraught and fail to realize it is over.
... PS I never mentioned a word about relationships at all! Just work. ... weird but she is right. She dumped my ass and likes someone else now. Ome of my new LJ friends I added noticed I try to undo mistakes thinking there are always second chances instead of just dealing with consequences.
I also had a disturbing dream where I was holding and trying to take care of a cat. These dreams with cats are bad luck dreams that deal with dominating females. I was watching a movie about divorce where both a father and son get divorced and I was hiding the cat and holding it like a baby in the movie theater. I went outside where it was cold and snowy wondering where we are going to live a lot like Alaska. I ended up in a car but had no place to go. In the movie there were occult worshipers summoning demons too to ruin the life of the father and son who just wanted to get away.