Goodbye
I'm not going to erase my account. I kind-of like looking back and seeing who I used to be and being so thankful that I can say that I am not her; but still her.
I am also thankful that David and I just celebrated 5.5 years together. I also speak with my parents again. David and I just spent the 1 year ani of his mother's death at her grave and he's moved on in the way a child can when their parent passes.
I have an amazing job taking care of children and though an odd professional choice, I am a Dominatrix as well.
I don't really speak with anyone from my passed, as far as online chat goes, that is. I think that is healthy. I still often wonder about Rose and if he is happy, and I know how Chris is as he still harasses me - he's a lost, mixed up person, which makes me sad. Vance. Why it is I think of him almost the least, when I lost my virginity to him? For some reason I think of Caleb. The person I knew the least amount of time. I also wonder if Rhia and Lee are together, married, with babies? I know I want them to do well so I can continue to believe if they can do it, David and I can.
Overall. I am a calm person now. No pains, whatsoever. I'm a happy 22 year old and seriously considering getting married at last and starting our own family.
I'm happy journal. When I did look back on the last 6 years you've been in my life or so, I really wasn't. And when I was, it was because a boy a million miles away 'loved' me and thought I was pretty. And though David thinks I am lovely and adores me to bits, I don't need that anymore. It's a bonus in my life but not what defines my life.
I think, though not certain, that this will be my last post. Letting this area go is a way for me to let go of the mad 15 year old and welcome to 22 year old version to me.
Goodbye, and hello world.
I am also thankful that David and I just celebrated 5.5 years together. I also speak with my parents again. David and I just spent the 1 year ani of his mother's death at her grave and he's moved on in the way a child can when their parent passes.
I have an amazing job taking care of children and though an odd professional choice, I am a Dominatrix as well.
I don't really speak with anyone from my passed, as far as online chat goes, that is. I think that is healthy. I still often wonder about Rose and if he is happy, and I know how Chris is as he still harasses me - he's a lost, mixed up person, which makes me sad. Vance. Why it is I think of him almost the least, when I lost my virginity to him? For some reason I think of Caleb. The person I knew the least amount of time. I also wonder if Rhia and Lee are together, married, with babies? I know I want them to do well so I can continue to believe if they can do it, David and I can.
Overall. I am a calm person now. No pains, whatsoever. I'm a happy 22 year old and seriously considering getting married at last and starting our own family.
I'm happy journal. When I did look back on the last 6 years you've been in my life or so, I really wasn't. And when I was, it was because a boy a million miles away 'loved' me and thought I was pretty. And though David thinks I am lovely and adores me to bits, I don't need that anymore. It's a bonus in my life but not what defines my life.
I think, though not certain, that this will be my last post. Letting this area go is a way for me to let go of the mad 15 year old and welcome to 22 year old version to me.
Goodbye, and hello world.