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So out with the old and in with the new. New picture from last weekend. And my totally hot red corset with gold phoenix's. Oh how I need a haircut.
I ended a nineteen year friendship today. A few things have been adding to the end of my friendship with Marisa and I just have had enough. I don't want that stuff in my life. I am trying to make my life as happy as I possibly can.
I believe completely in The Secret. For anyone who doesn't know - our body is made of of cells, which are made up of atoms with are made of energy. No one can *really* explain energy but it always has been and always will be. Anyways. I believe that if we put positive thoughts and positive energy into the world or universe, we will attract all the positive things we're thinking and feeling. Same goes for all the negataive things we think and feel.
I hate when people look at me and say I have a cute curvey figure. If I saw my body on someone else I may like it. But it is my body. And though I am starting to like it more, overall I still hate it. I feel like the fat tall girl stil. In some ways, may always. BUT. I am not going to think that I am fat, or those last 8 pounds I want to lose from my european ass but instead tell myself every morning all the thngs I do LIKE about my body and focus on those. And other areas of my life, too.
I wrote all of the things I am greatful for in my current day life and post them on the cealing above my bed. I go to sleep reading it and wake up reading it. I also wrote out a list of "I am:" and put everything on there that I want o achieve in my life, as if in present tense. My mind does not know that I am not there unless I tell it. So I also read all of the things, as if in present tense, I want in life before bed and when I wake (I have a million dollar Primerica Office, I have beautiful healthy children, I have a successful published book) etc. And these things calm me. They keep me on track.
I have a tendacy to drive myself insane. And now that I am not working.. I go a lttle looney.
I am not sure what that warm feeling is that I felt weeks ago when talking to my god - my higher being - my inner self, whatever, but it changed me in ways that I can't explain but love embracing.
Besides that; my baby sister - not so baby any more, turning 12 in a few weeks -is coming up here with a handful of her friends and spending her birthday in the 'big city' with her sister. I'll take them rock climing, lazer taging and some multi-gamed light up floor stuff. I am, the crafty person that I am, making her a home-made horse cake. Don't know how yet but I will manage.
I really don't know what to get her either. She's a cool like 11 year old so maybe we'll go get our nose's pierced together or something.
It is super cold out but also super sunny so I am excited to hop in the shower and go for a long walk and get out of my funk and enjoy my time off of work and scheduals and requirements.
TTFN.
I ended a nineteen year friendship today. A few things have been adding to the end of my friendship with Marisa and I just have had enough. I don't want that stuff in my life. I am trying to make my life as happy as I possibly can.
I believe completely in The Secret. For anyone who doesn't know - our body is made of of cells, which are made up of atoms with are made of energy. No one can *really* explain energy but it always has been and always will be. Anyways. I believe that if we put positive thoughts and positive energy into the world or universe, we will attract all the positive things we're thinking and feeling. Same goes for all the negataive things we think and feel.
I hate when people look at me and say I have a cute curvey figure. If I saw my body on someone else I may like it. But it is my body. And though I am starting to like it more, overall I still hate it. I feel like the fat tall girl stil. In some ways, may always. BUT. I am not going to think that I am fat, or those last 8 pounds I want to lose from my european ass but instead tell myself every morning all the thngs I do LIKE about my body and focus on those. And other areas of my life, too.
I wrote all of the things I am greatful for in my current day life and post them on the cealing above my bed. I go to sleep reading it and wake up reading it. I also wrote out a list of "I am:" and put everything on there that I want o achieve in my life, as if in present tense. My mind does not know that I am not there unless I tell it. So I also read all of the things, as if in present tense, I want in life before bed and when I wake (I have a million dollar Primerica Office, I have beautiful healthy children, I have a successful published book) etc. And these things calm me. They keep me on track.
I have a tendacy to drive myself insane. And now that I am not working.. I go a lttle looney.
I am not sure what that warm feeling is that I felt weeks ago when talking to my god - my higher being - my inner self, whatever, but it changed me in ways that I can't explain but love embracing.
Besides that; my baby sister - not so baby any more, turning 12 in a few weeks -is coming up here with a handful of her friends and spending her birthday in the 'big city' with her sister. I'll take them rock climing, lazer taging and some multi-gamed light up floor stuff. I am, the crafty person that I am, making her a home-made horse cake. Don't know how yet but I will manage.
I really don't know what to get her either. She's a cool like 11 year old so maybe we'll go get our nose's pierced together or something.
It is super cold out but also super sunny so I am excited to hop in the shower and go for a long walk and get out of my funk and enjoy my time off of work and scheduals and requirements.
TTFN.